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Paper Date

2012-01-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i met Ivan and Chin at Fancy paper at 11am but i was like half an hour late! :| Oh yeah so happy i found an indirect bus there and it was pretty fast! HURRAY!

I bought $9.40 worth of paper, let's hope i don't screw up so i can save my back up paper for other stuff!

We went to Soup Spoon to eat our lunch. I only ate $3-4 worth of my $12+ meal! :( :(

I took my FED5C along so we were acting like tourist at NLB and otw back to Bras Basah! HAHAHA can't wait for the film to develop!

Shopped at art friend and popular and couldn't find the ORH we were looking for so we went to Taka's art friend! Ivan left so left me and chin! We surprised Momo who were working too nyhehehehe!

We walked and talked all the way from Taka to Dhoby then went to Serangoon! YAY THANKS CHIN FOR ACCOMPANYING ME TO DEVELOP FILM! When i was there, i totally forgot how to rewind my FED5C and we just sat near the shop figuring how to rewind. In the end, i google for the manual HAHAOMGOMGHAHAH. Yeah but i managed to get that film out!

Oh ya! Do you know that Vista is no longer producing out films? HUHHHHH WHY? First is Kodak now is Vista NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! Are they really planning to purge films photography to extinction?

I have to print by tonight! Let's work it work it!

Philosophy

2012-01-26T21:56:00.002+08:00

I came across Cynicism and Stoicism while reading about Diogene of Sinope. And i think i can embrace these philosophical thinking.

WE ARE 龙的传人!

2012-01-26T21:18:00.001+08:00

This is probably the weirdest CNY i ever had in my 18 plus years of life. Chinese New Year in January feels so wrong and out of place... Like i haven't even finish saying "Happy New Year Pull Your Ear", i have already had to start saying "Gong xi fa cai".

Day 1 of the DRAGON:

First stop is the temple opposite my house. You know what, i don't get the PRC family who were quarreling the hell out in the temple because the PRC husband is reluctant to remove his shoes in order to enter the temple. WHAT THE FUG??? Seriously right... if you say i shouldn't label the entire group of them as bad because there bound to be black sheep amongst the WHOLE lot of them but hello? Everyone of them are pretty much the same kind of black sheep. URGH.

2nd stop: Went to Hong Yi's house!

3rd stop: Ah Ma's house!

ah ma so chio *.*

FYI, i brought along my mac the entire day to do work but the only time i managed to do some work was at ah ma house. I did for about 15 minutes and dozed off on ah ma's bed. :( Throughout all these years, my family stayed at ahma house stop for the longest. We stayed till 3pm plus sia when we usually leave at around 1pm.

4th Stop: 师公 temple!

YAY forever looking forward to 师婆's lemon tea!

All the talks about my Bhutan trip... haiyer. Only pa and ma can make it so good for them lor. I hope i will still have a chance to go Bhutan some day. :|

5th stop was to 舅公's kampong at Yio Chu Kang area which is super near Hougang. I must emphasize the Kampong everytime! So shiok to still have relative staying at kampong in Singapore. I took my Fed 5C along but it was raining so i only took around his kampong and not into the deeper kampong inside.

6th stop is at Yi Ma's house. Shortest stay at jie's house throughout my CNY experiences. I was still planning to do some work there but spent my time playing with Summer the Schnauzer :)

7th stop is Uncle Lim's house. Wah i totally zoned out and was spacey exhausted that i can't even focus on the conversation.

8th stop and my last stop was at Shiyee's house! Wah they did a sauce to go with 2nd uncle's Black Pepper Duck!

Day 2 of the DRAGON:

7 years one time, my father's side of uncles will take turn to host the Koh family CNY gathering and yes, 7 years past and it is my family's turn this year!

Before

After. I am so happy my room can look so "spacious" and i haven't change back to the previous layout until now hhahaha.

Even my living rooms were changed just to make sure we can accommodate the huge volume of Kohs coming in later.

First batch of Buffet arrived at 10am. I love the first shift's food!

Bro doing last minute clean up!

Rolling in! 2nd uncle, 3rd uncle, 4th uncle, 5th uncle, 8th uncle, 10th uncle, 2nd aunt, 3rd aunt and plus all my cousins and their family. This is barely 2/3 of the actual size.

HUAT ARHHHHHH!

3rd uncle and Dua Um!

4th uncle and family!

8th uncle and family!

My father's side left at about 1pm plus. The second shift of buffet came at around that time. Just in time, my mother's side came.

Hongyi and family!

YAY MY MOST HYPER AH GONG!

So did me and bro's friends!

Tehpeng who came! Steph, Fiona, WY, Yaopigu and CH who came later!

I honestly was so worried they would be bored and have nothing to do. Flustered!

Onglai minus Nika who is still at Korea came at around 4-5pm plus!

ONGLAI AND TEHPENG LO HEI! YAY!

We lo hei-ed and went back to my squeezy room to play charade (?) and it was getting bored and i was getting alittle jumpy then bro's friend came over and ask whether we want to join them to play Chucky Chucky!

Year 2s and Year 3s at bro's room playing Chucky Chucky! HHAHAHA OMG. The Om Om Om Om was like some cult meeting chanting sia!!! My bro's friend later taught us another game and i was already zoned out and "wolfed" at any apparent moment. LOL

Tehpeng left at about 7-8pm since they have SSM the next morning! Good luck guys and thanksssss for coming! Love you all! :D

Onglai stayed and we kinda talked for awhile before bro and friends went down to play fire crackers. We rushed down to play but wahlao so boring. Where was all the sparks and joy we got when we were young? :(

We later went to buy ice cream and went back to my room.

Guess what time onglai stayed until?

2 minutes before 12am! HAHAHAHAH

OMG! I almost spent my 初二 and 初三 with you all! Hehehhe. But it was SOOOOO nice to be just nuaing together and HTHT all the way! Let's do it again soon with Nika, the 6 of us do what we do best: Nua tgt and HTHT tgt! YAY! Omg i miss the old time at chin's house! :D

So happy! Thanksss for coming also! Love you all too muack muack!

*

The second day was indeed really exhausting entertaining my relatives and friends but i am so happy! 7 years later when my family gets to host this gathering again, i would already be 25 years old. I wonder how would i be then 7 years down the road. Married with kids or a career woman or just left on the shelf?

Well well well.

I had fun! ^^

Goodbye good air

2012-01-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

No words can express how upset i am about my Bhutan trip getting cancelled. I was so hyped and ready for it to see the mountains and monastery and finally breathe in some fresh air and see some good people in Bhutan but then, my "confirmed" tickets to Bhutan got no more seats in the plane. So they forward it ALL the way to 16-24March.

HOLLLLA GURL i fucking have IP you know? That's like a mini-FYP. If i could, i would take LOA and get my ass out of here but i can't.

Omg, see my heart bleeding alright?

Hello future husband somewhere in the world getting lost, let's go Bhutan some day thanks and love you!

OUT OF LABBIT YEAR!

2012-01-23T02:15:00.000+08:00

Chinese Zodiac 101: Oh yeah finally all the Rooster in the world REJOICE! Because we are no longer in the rabbit year that is supposedly 在压／克我们 for this past 1 year! REJOICE because it is dragon year and it is supposedly a very good year for the Rooster!

ALL THE ROOSTER UNITE AND REJOICEEEEEEEE! :D

YAY!

I love morning these days. The warm sun on my skin at 10am~ Whoaaa. If only i can wake up at 8.30am instead of the usual 7.30am (for school). It is still morning right? But 1 hour makes a different!

Went to Gugu's house to have a reunion lunch with her and i did my work there! I found out some super duper awesome keys in InDesign omg i love you so much InDesign *MUACKS*! Went to the horribly squeezy Nex to get my family's reunion dinner package.

I was initially thinking maybe i am a xenophobic against those swarming cheena in the shopping malls and EVERYWHERE OMG THEY ARE TAKING OVER SG LAH! I miss the SG i was in when i was young really... :( But then some googling makes me think i am more of a Empath... Either way, i think i am slowly going into the grey zone man. ?_? DENG DENG DENG!

Gonna be a long day. My 初一 is practically walking around half of Singapore for the whole day. I am still thinking whether to bring my mac along to do work since for every stop i make, it will quite a waste of time sitting there and eating bak kwa.

OH YEAH talking about bakkwa. During reunion lunch just now, i laughed so much i burst the beehoon out of my mouth and yes i was talking about bakkwa. "The Lord of the BakKwa" "Harry Potter and the Dealthy Bakkwa" "The Chronicles of Bakkwa". HAHAHAHHAHA.

And also... i can't get over the reddish hue of my dye. I feel more HUAT-er than ever!

But bro keeps complaining about how my crown looks more reddish and my tip of my hair is more brownish! Hair looks good at the bottom 2 pic. NYHEHEHEHE. Good dye is a good happy minyu!

I secretly can't wait for 初二! I hope i can come back early tomorrow to clean up my room and move my furniture so they will have more place to sit when they come! Also i'm secretly glad that it is my family's turn to host the gathering this year. That means i don't have to travel all the way to the west and i can have more time to do work! HOLLAAA! Plus, this every 6-7 years, my family will host it, the next time we host it, i will be probably 24 or 25 years old. omg wonder what will i be doing then..

HAPPY DRAGONFUL YEAR!

DRAGON SIOL

2012-01-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

YAY i am finally done with all my content and proof reading! 6688 words! Quite auspicious hor? HUAT ARH!

Thank god i did proof reading because i realised a lot of my sentences made no sense and i didn't even recalled typing them before. Must be the subconscious...

Gonna wake up early to go to Gu gu house tmr.. Tomorrow is the start of my annual CNY nightmare, visits after visits after visits. :( I must be getting old to feel so tired just from hearing about visits.

I shall bring my mac to continue to do work. Urgh, my med's drowsiness is taking over me. So thankful i finish proof-reading before this hits me! YAY

Bye!

OH NO!

2012-01-21T13:48:00.001+08:00

I honestly am feeling like this now

The med is either strong or they made my muscles relaxed so much i can't even grab my tablet's pen properly. wah i feel so weakkkkkk

White Flag

2012-01-21T00:50:00.001+08:00

Omg my flu, sore throat, cough meds are kicking in SUPER BADLY. I'll blog as sanely as possible. Pardon if there are sentence that does not make any sense.

VSC Year 2 talk and my copper red hair on the top while the brown remained at the bottom.

The day where i wore formal for a non-formal presentation :(

Oh yea, also the day where i took a taxi down thinking i was late but the class started half an hour later :( :(

The same day Nika was born 19 years ago!

RISING WINTER event a success!

Finally get my stubborn ass down to Dr Bok and while waiting i did my work.

Finally realising the beauty of putting my mac to sleep instead of shutting down.

I got no idea why i rushed down to sch after seeing the doctor and got a MC.

Face: Cui

Class pin up. I really like pin up class crits. I love crits. But apparently only david and hon does this. Just so happen this 2 lecturers are the only good ones left.

Ooo godvid looks good here! No?

Round 2. My pin up is the only one in the odd shape. Search yourself

Pa in my new specs

Ma in my new specs

Gor in his new specs. No he is not in army yet but yes army boy look and it looks good!

Yay zilian!

I got meaty nose hor. And tell me about eyebrow because i got absolutely no idea how a nice eyebrow looks like? Omg im clueless for a girl. How arh, how to marry out if i dont know how to dress up with make up? Nah, not gonna make up my entire life. If guys really look for appearance first, i'll prolly be stuck on the shelf. But im not banking on the fact that anyone will look deeper than skin deep.

LOL wtf am i talking.

okay med is making my leg and my brain jelly wobbly.

Good night! ?_?

Slouch

2012-01-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

If i am a cat, i would probably look and feel like this now.

The feeling i am feeling right now is not stress. Wahlao seriously is my default or my "deep-in-the-thinking" face register to you as stress? I AM NOT LAHHHHHHH! Haiyerrr.

The feeling i am feeling is more of a hmmm meh. Like the cat lor. Like HMMM MEHHH...

You know right, this 5000 minimum body copy, the more i think about it, the more i think it is ridiculous. For example, my publication, i am going for one that is not information cluttered. Shouldn't our publication be dependent on our topic and we set the copy? Sian right. This is brief cage for you girls and boys.

But despite all my ranting right, i am already at 4000/5000 words that i typed out one by one. Good thang. But i gotta review them once more cause like some came right from my subconscious and i got no idea what i wrote. ha ha

purrrrrrrr

Did i mention i really love garfield when i was young? I even had a garfield plushie that i can put tu tu. HHAAH! I always think that if i ever get a cat, it would either be the cat on top or a persian cat. I want it to be comfortably fat without having high cholesterol like me.

FAT CAT MEOW MEOW!

p/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKA! :DDD

WHAT THE FLU?

2012-01-18T23:51:00.002+08:00

I was recovering SO WELL from my body's own immunity and my throat inflammation is almost okay, GUESS WHAT?

I GOT FLU RIGHT NOW.

WHAT THE SHIT.

HONESTLY RIGHT PEOPLE, IF YOU ARE SICK, PLEASE GO SEE DOCTOR AND STAY AT HOME. OMG THE AIR IN DESIGN SCHOOL IS SO BADLY VENTILATED I FEEL SO STUFFED BREATHING IN THE DIRTY AIR.

Hur.

Yea omg, i am saying about myself as well......

That's why no matter how upset i am that i am no longer able to train my own body's immunity by healing myself, i am going to take the flu pill before i sleep later.

Enough hor stupid viruses.

LAST WARNING :(

p/s: Spent my entire day doing that brand building i don't even have time to do publication design. Plus the VSC year 2 talk with CM just now simply took another chunk of my time to do work. Oh god. How many days am i actually left with? Am i gonna really do my work during CNY? Please lah, why do they not think about people like me who got gigantic family that i have to visit since both my parents are one of the smallest amongst their super many siblings? Come on lah. I shall sleep now and recover from all this illnesses. SLEEP IS KING PEOPLE.

SLEEP
IS
KING

HEALTH
IS
LIFE

Berry Berry Berry

2012-01-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

Bye bye! :( I didn't realised it looked so good!

I probably have already forgotten how pungent hair dye was. Omg, my eyes kept tearing from the sting and my nose was constantly twitching.

Albert helped me choose Cassis Berry Colour. I initially wanted the Dark Chocolate. But oh well.
I think this dye started oxidizing hor, WAH PIANG SCARE ME LEH! Looks like someone dump a bottle of red wine on my head!

Hmm i honestly can't see my hair colour. Maybe i need to calibrate my own eyes as well. (TDS Students you get it?) HAHAA. I think my roots are super berry coloured while my ends just looks softer from the previous goldish brown.

But aiya, the thing is my hair is bloody absorbent so after a few wash it will confirm be lighter than now. Feels weird to see myself with dyed hair again.. I feel so young and weird again. Like those rebel once more.

Oh ya, while waiting for my hair to dry, i cut up the cloth i bought from Cat Socrate and i cut it just now for it to be my door drape. The thing is.. i hope everyone don't get neck ache while trying to read the Typography Guide.

So much so much so bloody much work to do but i ain't got the feeling to do any.

Honey Therapy

2012-01-17T01:06:00.000+08:00

I was planning to walk back home to put my stuff before going down to see Dr.Bok after class just now. Then when i reached home, i decided to go ahead and try the honey therapy. I have been eating Jeju's honey for the past 1 day so it doesn't make sense to start feeding myself with pills.

I was thinking if the antibody cells in my body looks like a human, how would they look like? I will forever remember that line that said, "It is best to let your immunity to fight against illnesses, that is the only way you can build your immunity stronger." It is like saying 于强则强.

Feeling so green like healthy green these days. I have been eating vegetables a lot. For a self-proclaimed carnivore, i think it is a feat. My want to be healthy surpass my desire for meat.

Oh ya, i also felt like i am a plant. Have i said this before? But i still feel like a plant. Walking back home in the evening sun, i felt like i was sucking the last ounce of sunlight, so warm so fuzzy. Feels like recharging my battery. In my room, i like to open my window wide open so my room will be extra bright. No wonder my brain gets overheated so easily...!

I am doing death related topic for my publication design. This topic made me really open my mind and understand more than i ever knew i could. My mind now feels like a brain with open scalp. HAHALOL. I was quite impressed with myself that it didn't affect me the slightest when i was watching videos of embalming and stuff.

This 2 years in design, i am sure i kept pushing my own boundaries to explore and do things that many people would not want to venture in. I don't even think that it is a sacrificial part on my grades you know. What is the point if you keep sticking on to topics that you feel comfortable and have done to death with. Honestly, what will you exactly learn in the long term? Just for good grades since you have the existing datas? Nah, i'm not planning to lead my life like this.

1 year and 2 months left being a student. I want to learn as much as possible even if i am not learning from the lecturers when i'm supposed to. As much as i rant about brand building's retarded assignments, i learnt so much branding field in a short 2 weeks. I am happy! As much as i feel abit spaced out for publication design, i am learning so much about life and death and everything in between from my own field trip and my own self generated thoughts of body copy.

Life is so much more than just self-reproaching.

One way to see it.

Most people complain about how hot the weather is but they fail to notice on the wind. They just felt frustrated for why the Sun is so glaring but they never stop to appreciate the wind that is blowing. Even if it is the mildest of the wind, i will want to focus on that.

心静自然凉

Good night!

mehhhh voiceeeee

2012-01-16T01:27:00.000+08:00

I woke up and was thinking "UH OH, THROAT INFLAMMATION".

I keep recalling back what did i exactly ate yesterday that caused this but i think it was the mixture of the excruciating hot weather at Sin Ming Drive (when i was visiting the funeral parlours) and probably the sudden air-con.

So in this case, i am more of gam tio.

I hate it when i'm sick.

Inflammation is like the worst amongst the sore throat categories because inflammation often bundles up with fever, which i am currently having too... or is it the heat from my mac?

I shall blog IF i have time tomorrow. Sick makes me so no feel. Good thing is that for just one sub topic, i wrote to 800 plus words. Blog you have done me well! *Pat Pat*. :}

Anyway, i went to Sin Ming Drive yesterday at noon, then we went to AMK Hub to eat Fish&Co. then we went to City Hall and i bought a new specs, 2 new shirt, 1 new pair of shoes, 1 new tee, 1 film camera and it is ALL under $300. SUPER DUPER WORTH IT. PLUS, the people there are 99% SINGAPOREAN and they are SO.FUCKING.FRIENDLY.

Yea i label you as my new favourite shopping place!

Time to sleep!

Body, recharge, reheal and re... junvenate. DO YOUR THANG!

Get off my head

2012-01-13T16:51:00.001+08:00

I know i hardly ever posted about fashion stuff in my entire life but for some reason, i cannot stop thinking about this dress. I was thinking, if i ever get married some day, i would definitely opt for this design (provided if i can afford them in the first place).

But oh god, i am like in an constant awe with this dress in my mind.

Also, i kept seeing a certain colour in my mind after pubdes started. It seemed like my head is screaming for it for so long i am gonna use them. It felt weird when i used other colours you know?

Anyway, i've finished reading "Chinese Death Rituals in Singapore" and i am gonna start on the second book soon. I hope i am not so clueless anymore. Clueless.

BUT WOW THE DRESS. I still can't get it off my head. And so is the colour.

Stomach Level -1

2012-01-13T12:04:00.004+08:00

Design school is such a tormenting for a healthy body. So much i want to do today but i can't go down to funeral parlours by myself without my bro (orders from ma). But oh well, i can't wait to visit all of them tmr and sunday! Hope they are slightly freer.

Skip to 1:13.

If you delay and delay, there's no happiness and no more today again.
(미루고 미루다 행복은 없어 오늘은 또 다시 없어)
The time has slipped already. So, come on and wake you up
(어느덧 시간은 벌써 Come On and Wake You Up)
Throw away those false hopes. You must be tired if you live for fighting and arguing.
(이렇다 저렇다 거짓된 희망은 치워 싸우고 다투고 살다간 지쳐)

Sick of getting used to competition, living inside the same pattern everyday
(습관이 돼버린 경쟁에 미쳐 똑같은 틀 안에 갇혀)
There's no one to notice you. So, come on and wake you up
(아무도 모르게 묻혀 Come On and Wake You Up)
Put away those spurious theories. You must get crazy from straightening yourself up in a row.
(어렵게 포장된 거짓된 이론은 치워 입맞춰 줄 맞춰 살다간 미쳐)

Ring Ring Ring-a-Ring-a Ring Ring Ring-a-Ring-a
I just want to sing, clap hands and smile for my life.
(노래나 부르며 손뼉을 치면서 웃으며 살고 싶어)

* Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring, This is the echo for a hope to live easy
(Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring 둥글게 살고 싶은 메아리야)
Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring, This is the melody for us to smile
(Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring 너와 내가 웃고 싶은 멜로디야)
Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring, Unreachable happiness is just a mirage.
(Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring 잡히지 않는 행복은 신기루야)
Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring The world goes round-and-round
(Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring 빙글빙글 어지러운 세상이야)

Raise your head and there's no one. There's no one above you
(고개를 들어봐 아무도 없어 네 위엔 아무도 없어)
Don't' need to mind others. So, come on and wake you up
(눈치 볼 필요가 없어 Come On and Wake You Up)
Dancing and Hanging Out became guilty. Get together here everybody.
(죄인이 돼버린 춤 추고 노는 사람들 여기로 여기로 다 같이 뭉쳐)

No matter what they say, you're cooler than them. Enjoying yourself is much more awesome.
(그 누가 뭐래도 네가 더 멋져 즐기는 그런 게 멋져)
To me, you look more fabulous, so come on and let me in
(내 눈엔 네가 더 멋져 Come On and Let Me In)
When others say this and that, people get tiresome and noisy as if they became special
(이렇다 저렇다 떠들면 뭐라도 된 듯 피곤한 사람들이거나

Ring Ring Ring-a-Ring-a Ring Ring Ring-a-Ring-a
I just want to sing, clap hands and enjoy for my life.
(노래나 부르며 손뼉을 치면서 즐겁게 살고 싶어)

* Repeat

Where are you heading for so busily busily? Time goes so busily.
(또 어딜 바삐 바삐 가 세월이 바삐 가)
Let's have some break and then leave together. Be easygoing!
(쉬었다 같이 갑시다 둥글게 갑시다)
Everything's going busily busily and passing by busily
(모든 게 바삐 바삐 가 흘러가 바삐 가)
Why don't we sing along playing?
(노래나 같이 합시다 놀면서 합시다)
Where are you heading for so busily busily? Time goes so busily.
(또 어딜 바삐 바삐 가 세월이 바삐 가)
Let's have some break and then leave together. Be easygoing!
(쉬었다 같이 갑시다 둥글게 갑시다)
Everything's going busily busily and passing by busily
(모든 게 바삐 바삐 가 흘러가 바삐 가)
Why don't we sing together? Please refill the battery!
(노래나 같이 합시다 놀면서 합시다 Please Refill the Battery)

I've been such a fool in my life, repeating the same circle over again.
(난 참 바보처럼 살았군 쳇바퀴 속을 돌고 있었군)
All those times have passed passed passed and lost

* Repeat

Ring-a-Ring-a-Ring ... x7

Don't overlook because this is a korean song. But the meaning is EXACTLY what i am living out for these days. So sad that good songs with good meanings are often lumber together into the category of a bunch of fans who only appreciate looks and not the music itself. So very sad.

On your toe

2012-01-13T02:38:00.000+08:00

I spent my after school hours back at home watering the plants outside, playing the guitar once more, reading those new design books i bought, research a bit for my pubdes before succumbing to reading endless online news then end it off with watching the sky and zoning out.

I am enjoying my life as of it right now~

A Tad Too Fast

2012-01-11T23:40:00.001+08:00

It is Wedneday again. HOW FAST WAS THAT?!

Happy thing - Went to Manpuku yesterday!

Someday i wanna be back there soon to eat the piping hot ramen while talking then chilling with a matcha ice cream just like the good old times i am yearning for...

I changed my pubdes topic from funeral to print and then back to funeral again so i was only left with 2 hours plus to do up the presentation. But either my lecturer didn't like the topic or i pissed him off by saying his crit was boring that i felt i was rushed and just being like judged during my presentation.

Sometimes i should have drawn the line very clearly that this line should never be crossed. Lecturers and students can never be friends. Because the more i treat this lect as friend, it just spirals down lah. DB33 is just condemned in the eyes of everyone forever okay. Just very sad that i'm losing respect for the only few people whom i can respect in this laughable school.

Oh ya anyway, did you know that during presentation today, someone actually ripped off my idea FRESH AND WHOLEY? I admit i was RAGING at first but it subsided quickly but then it was replaced with infinite of disgrace on her part and at her lack of integrity and also ashamed for her. Most of all, i am sympathetic at her state of being to the point that she can rip off my idea and present it as her own.

Surprisingly, i never had that problem when i was in DB33, the class that is blacklisted even by our own CP. 很可笑 hor?

This kind of thing right, no matter how you say it right/ correctly, it will bound to be an endless of argument. No point arh to start a war in the middle of the class.. So i decided to just secretly blacklist her.

One of the possible scenario that could have happened from a quarrel in the class is that I've made my point loud and clear, and i bet in 100% that she will be crying. But then, i would DEFINITELY be lamented by my lecturer for being like this because "ideas are meant to be shared during group consultation". Yes, i will never allow myself to be in that state where I am actually correct but i have no concrete proof to proof it.

You get what i mean?

So my dear friends with true and pure integrity. In the design school, please just NEVER share your awesome and amazing ideas out with people YOU HAVE NEVER WORKED WITH BEFORE or just people you can't be bothered to be associated with. BECAUSE, in the end, they are just going to fucking rip off your ideas and work and modify to be their own.

DB33 is condemned for life or maybe just the power ranger clique. But at least i know in our clique, we are not those skin deep type of clique. We still have integrity and pride and most of all, loyalty to friendship and to each other. I am not gonna judge the other cliques from the other classes but you all seems to be doing good unlike us, being ourselves and get blacklisted by the entire laughable institution's lecturers. 很可笑 hor?

Right now, i no longer can differentiate people with good intention and the bad, or people being friendly because they are truly friendly or just faking it all. But i no longer care, yea, i don't even bother about your existence as a whole in the first place. Even one day if i'm going to be all left alone, OBAMASELF (lol), i will not contradict my own principles to just be able to join the world of masks.

And the White keys

2012-01-10T13:26:00.001+08:00

Can't explain
Nor can I contain
Control
You have on my soul

It's all I do I
s baby dream of you
I'm falling down
When you're around

You're the only one
You're the only one
I'm so wrapped up in a daze
Hoping this is just a faze
But when all is said and done
I know you are still the one
You're the only one
You're the only one
Cupid's bow it stung
Now you're the only one

Mystery
Is what this is to me
I'm giving up
I'm having no luck

Like a ghost
The one that I love most
She disappears
When I get near

I dont know why is The Black Key's The Only One is fitted with that movie but yea the lyrics and the music. Ahh feel good music on a rainy day and im freezing in VSC Lounge and waiting for my 3pm class to start.

Time is Golden

2012-01-09T22:00:00.001+08:00

I can't believe how free i am right now.

I finished my brand building report and already printed, CD's ready, everything just set for tomorrow's submission. I am finally back to the right track. The joy is so inexplainable when i'm the one chasing the deadline instead of the deadline breathing down on me!

Oh yea, i've thought and kinda decided on the topic i want to do for publication.

I am still standing firm about doing something that i like instead of conforming to bullshit. I'm only left with 1 year plus of doing something i like before i get out to the industry and start doing things related with money. Gonna enjoy as much as i could right now.

Played guitar when i came home! Hehehhee i tuned it pitch perfect with relative tuning HOMG! :D I can't seems to learn chords cause my hand is never wide enough to reach across the neck of the guitar. :( So i am playing fingerstyle guitaring all these while. :}

Ate fish porridge while talking to mama. So nice!

I talked to her to the point where she told me to stop thinking...

Ain't no Sunshine, female version and the way Olivia Ong sings it, i wanna strum or play the piano the next time i sing this. Heh.

Yes i love this life. No frills just chill.

So good to have good time management! Off to watch shows!~

Asian

2012-01-09T01:49:00.001+08:00

This is one of the feel-good music i'm listening to this past few days.

I've finished my brand building research and everything. I should print it tomorrow. I've spent my sunday doing work since morning, taking a bit of nap which turned out bad since i kept having bad dreams these days and back to work. I got a topic i wanna thread on for publication design but i am still not very sure.

I realised that my heart has closed on somebody and my heart has yet to open for some others. This is such a complicated yet simple thing that cannot be written here. Because for one, people see the same thing differently.

Okay.

It feels so good to have my 1m x 1m painting back, sitting infront of me while i do my work. For some reason it is keeping me going on and reminding me about the true meaning i painted that.

人生有太多的牵挂牵扯着最简单的事与物

In an blink of an eye, it is school again :/

Welcome ________

2012-01-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

Welcome to DESIGN!

Last day of TP Open House 2012. For some reason, i felt that there were a whole lot of lesser people who came this year. Maybe there wasn't much advertising about this open house so a few people might not know. But honestly, i am happy. Those who were interested in the specific course came and i enjoyed taking those on tours.

Design's arch is so cool!

But Aizat, Jonah, Aman and Jinglong went to graffti it with spray paint OMG LOL!!

Anyway this is the funniest! "ONE DOES NOT SIMPLY ENTER DESIGN SCHOOL" HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Won the 4 IMD badges yesterday! Hhehehehe! I pinned one today!

With the DSC who were cheering!

Kaori! Wow i just realised this year's year 1 batch got a lot of half japanese! So far i know there are 3 leh! COOL OR WHATTTTT!

Time to dye my hair with liese pao pao. I should buy asap...

Siao siao

Yea i had fun doing duty these days with the SA laojiao year 2s and the year 1s! Enjoyed doing Open house today with the DSCs too. Oh yea LiYi, MinMin and friend, Nicolas, Yaopigu all came by to say hi! So many BN Juniors had tour too! Saw Cai Lao Shi too hahahaha! He still remember me and the chinese class people LOL!

At 4pm plus, Jen FINALLY came! I waited for 1 hour sia! Anyway we took back our painting and cabbed back. The cab detoured and took the wrong turn omg but luckily he refund! YAY!

WELCOME BACK HOME BABY!

WELCOME!

OMG HAHAHAHAHAH I KEEP LAUGHING AT THIS PICTURE! SO CUTE HOR! HAHAHAH

LAO

2012-01-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

I feel like i just took a plunge on the flat escalator that speeds through. Do you know the airport long vertical escalator? Yes i'm talking about that. The wind on my face, the balance i'm trying to keep while on that escalator. I can't wait for the next stop point. Can you even believe this is only the first week and i'm barely finishing this week? It felt so long. I still have to be back in school to do Open House Duty tomorrow. 1 report on monday, another 1 report on tuesday and today i've completed 1 presentation, printed 14 pages of worldskill assignment. I like it busy but if only my class starts at 12pm. Morning 9am class is such a spawn of devil. No i am not stress, please stop associating that word with me, i honestly don't like that word. Can't wait to dye my hair with liese pao pao soon, change a new frame, get back my 1x1m painting and have some quality sleep. Hmm... sleep is yummy.

GURUs

2012-01-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i slept for 11hours straight- 8pm - 7am. SHIOK OR WHAT? I think i repaid a part of my sleep debt because i know i slept really soundly.

Brand Building and Publication Design this block. Yeah sounds like hell but honestly i am damn happy and damn damn excited everyday. The fact that i am learning from Desmond and David, like the 2 gurus in their own field makes me so happy.

FINALLY I AM LEARNING SOMETHING.

Do you even know the depressing feeling when you get after not learning anything from anyone for the past few months of school? HMM?

Yes, i am learning a lot about brand building from an industry/field guru, desmond and david, no need say lah hor? Can you actually believe i am learning so much typography/prepress/whatever from david in 3 hours than i ever learnt in 1 whole month for certain modules? HMMM?

I hope i can SUCK IN as much information and learn as much as possible from them before this block ends. It is gonna be a pity to end without learning alot especially in this hectic block.

Im doing Open House duty tomorrow, friday and full-day saturday. I got a report due on this friday and next tuesday. This year is my family's turn to organise CNY gathering plus i got so many relatives to visit and entertain. OOOOO EXCITING ARH?

But in order to learn more in class (which imho, is the most important), i am going to adjust my sleeping time. That 11hours changed it so yeah gonna stop yawning in class and LEARN MORE LEARN MORE.

FINALLY LEARNING SOMETHING OMG MY TEARS ARE OVER FLOWING WITH JOY AND HAPPINESS.

2012-01-03T19:22:00.000+08:00

人生事無常，
線糊湊兩旁，
立正盼過往，
但已淡是樣，
心乏懷過滿。

Stuffs Stuffs

2012-01-03T02:29:00.001+08:00

Editing the TPDPA video i did last year's last week's last friday for the entire day. I am only two fifth done but so far so good. Hahah.

School is starting in 7 hours. It is going to be reunion class for DB33 since half of us from onglai and cgang will be back in that class. I know i did say about not looking forward for pubdes but as i said in my reflection of 2011 post, which was just below. I am kinda excited now while reading the brief. And also, tp open house is starting and i don't have to do for too long, that is one happy thought.

Shooting your gun into the dark, let's see who fires back
When a bite comes without a bark, whose gonna watch your back

So little in so much time has been tasted
You wasted all that we had
Maybe we were wrong from the start
'Cause we're sorry, sorry excuses for love

Summer's never coming again
We'll tangle in the wind and rain
Oh no

Sarangeul wideon ggeunjeoghan ibsule baredeon bunhongsaek
Dareul ibsullo beonjiryeo hane 18 (sibpal*) na eoddeoghae
Jinan myeoch ilgan saedeon nunmulgwa bameun nuga jaewojuryeona
Neoneun uril swibge beoryeosseo
We're sorry, sorry excuses for love

Summer's never coming again
We'll tangle in the wind and rain
Oh no

It's ok with me though, I'll just keep my radar low
If you knew what I know, it's nothing knew at all
It's ok with me though, I'll just keep my radar low
If you knew what I know, it's nothing knew at all
But love stay with me...

Korea indie band, The Black Skirts. I only like a few songs and the few songs i liked are mostly slow like this one.

slow huh?

Old Year (快乐)

2012-01-03T01:49:00.001+08:00

My thoughts about 2011.. Honestly after coming into poly, it doesn't really seems to bother if this year is 2010 or 2011 or even 2012. Back in the days when we were in primary or secondary school, the first day of school is in the first day of the year and I will be reminded consciously about the year since i have to write it on the top right hand corner of my foolscape or maybe in my test paper.

Right now in polytechnic, a year seemed to only pass when April comes. So now, year is a mere 4 digit number i see on my phone or on my macbook. Don't you too?

Hahahah i was about to type a long essay about "HAPPY" NEW YEAR – are you being truthfully happy ; then i happened to scroll past this comic strip in tumblr. It sort of summarised my 'new' year rant. LOL.

Anyway here is my take of my own 2011.

It feels like only a few months ago i was in the cold snowy Korea celebrating my New Year in another country. Eating kimchi, wearing 5 layers of thick coats, having my hand freeze, my cheek freeze, my hair freeze but it was wonderful.

2011 whizzed past.

In 2011, i think i've grown up a lot. In spiritual terms, in mentality-wise, i think i have grown up a lot. I learnt to 忍. I learnt to ignore people's insults though i still get angry when i think back. I learnt to be more wise.

I talked and questioned myself more. I found a void in myself that only self-answering to my many questions is the only possible way to go. I learnt how to let go and move on.

Last year was a year i struggled with own thoughts the most, but too, gained the most in returned.

2011, i didn't have much time that i could spend with tehpeng. I also spent lesser time with onglais. I spent lesser time with my relatives. But in return, i spent more time with myself and spent more time with my family.

2011 was also the year i found out about torrent and also the year i've watched the most movies in my entire lifespan.

I dare not say that right now, as a 2012 18 years old me, i have learnt to 看破 many aspect of my life but i think i am taking the hang of it. I realised that in life, there are so much more things i would love to pursue and enjoy. My 胆 has never been so positively ego-ly boosted before. Because right now, i am determined to walk the path i think i want to experience in terms of Design career and Design studies.

18 years old me, i am still worried that whatever determination i am striving, am i still too young to be this determined? I weigh pros and cons more and more. I don't want my choice to be the wrong one. What if only time will tell? But for now, i am still going in that way. Until one day, if it is the wrong one, i will just have to pick myself up and move the other possible way.

2012, i want to be even more wise. I want to eventually one day, cover this void i have in my chest and in my mind. I want it to be filled with realisation and the only good. Does it sound weird for this to be coming out from a 18 year's old mind?

2012, while achieving my constant want of realisation, i hope apathy does not overwhelm me because it did today.

Nobody understands or bothers to further and deeper their understanding of my momentary emotion, my temporary words of rage, sadness. They will eventually give me stamp of everlasting impression that i am a person of rage or sadness based on my temporary words. I could be apathy to it but i do not want.

For whoever out there. To the people i am close with, to the friends i am acquaintance with. Would you judge a person still after reading this? Would your words still be of no responsibilities after knowing that the person you are speaking to, might be hurt but is not saying anything?

2012, i hope i grow wiser and so do the rest of my surrounding. Because if my surrounding doesn't, i would leave in search of a better pasture. Yes, i am mean but i just want a peace of mind for i am still searching in vain for a person i can 将心比心坦然对待.

2012, i am excited but feared, i am happy but void, i am awaiting but stopped. 2012, let's be good.

After Effect

2012-01-02T02:59:00.002+08:00

As much as i like period drama shows, i like asian dramas, i like drama with good plot, i like drama with good actors/actress. This drama did it because the actors/actresses were all seasoned laojiao who portrayed the inner emotion so well.

The last 2 episode made me cried bullocks until a tear mole came out under my left eye lid.
p/s: omg i went to search and it was a mole called "Tear of Sadness" WTF?? lol, but the last time it came out, it disappeared soon. Let's hope this is not a joke.

Where have i been?

2012-01-02T01:23:00.002+08:00

I think i was transported back with the show to Qing Dynasty.

HAHA.

Yep.

A day after i posted about padam padam show, i saw the commercial of 《步步惊心》that will be showing on Channel 8. I was curious because the trailer was pretty good. And plus, i wanted a break from doing Worldskill practice papers.

This was not the commercial that stopped me and made me wanted to watch this show since this show is definitely deeper than what this trailer presents.

Anyway, i finished this 35 episode drama in 3 days. Don't call it an obsession because this show really made me think alot with its many open ended questions and quotes.

My tab that were opened this 3 days were the show itself, wikipedia on kangxi, wikipedia on yongzhen.

Remember in some previous post i was saying about how i wished i wasn't born in this era but in the olden days where people are free and send letters through pigeons? This show actually answered my question since it was about a modern age woman transported back into the dynasty era. But this wasn't the main point.

If i were to be actually born into the olden days, i would have been a person spending half of my day practicing calligraphy, probably riding a horse or learning martial arts in the garden. Maybe i would be brewing tea and reading poetry by the pond in a pavilion. That was provided, if i was born a rich 小姐 or 先生 in a well-to-do family of considerable prestige family background. In that era, i would have been married off in a arranged marriage to some guy i prolly never seen before at the age of 16-18.

But what if i was born to a not-well-to-do family in that era? I would have been starving and kneeling for food, eating off scraps. For a young lady or guy, i would had to go out and work at a very young age. Who knows, i would have been some rich lady or guy's servant and serve their family till death.

The olden days i said was beautifully pictured as a paradise for me a urban person who wants to escape into. The least i would imagine is a comfortable mansion with a nice pavilion and a pond and me spending my entire day doing things slowly like admiring the flowers or even the breeze right? But what if the past i was in, was a total reverse? Would i have agreed to be in that era?

The era i've imagined and wished for was built on the things i hardly could get from this era. The chivalry in men any woman is brought up to look for. The brotherhood or sisterhood that everyone would die for. The loyalty that ones spoken words are taken and treated with the utmost importance, akin to their own life. The filial piety to the family meant more than just monetary transaction but actual promise to bring comfort life to ones who brought you up.

Those moral i look and hardly find in my own era, i pinned all my hopes into the past era which i grew up watching, reading, hearing about.

However, if you ask me if i would give up on what i have now, having said that i am born in this era and given so much stuff and can know so much within a click of a finger; Will it be worth the sacrifice to be back in the era of nothing?

If you ask me... Maybe? Things of comfort when taken away can be slowly adjusted to the point where i will not be reliant to them. Even if it takes me 1 or 2 years, eventually, i will be able to adjust right? But the morality, the pace of life is something i can never get or achieve in this era.

But one thing, in that era, woman are worth nothing. While watching 步步惊心, it just reminded me how low respect girls in that era had. Woman of that time has no say has almost no rights. If i am born then, i would have grown accustomed to that era's normality so i wouldn't even be against it in the first place. But saying, if i was going back to that era in my current state of mind, i would probably go berserk and angry.

One thing i got from was that, the morality (chivalry, manliness, thoughtful...) of guys i hoped and yearned in this era could never be the same as those guys in the past. You know why?

In the past, guys are given absolute rights and absolute say. That was why it was only right and in terms of ego (man pride) to treat girls with those type of morality. Bring your head back to our era right now. Woman and Man got the same rights to a certain extend. The inner urge to be egoistic which in turn was a pushing factor to be brave, chivalristic to be real man – but in today's term... why would guy do that if the woman got the same rights and same says as they do?

Do you get what i mean?

We take something, we lose something. That is only natural. Everyone is talking about homosexuality now, whether is it not a norm or whatsoever. But have they thought when they were comparing to the past that it was only natural for guys with absolute power to be shielding woman of no rights and say?
Now that everything is even, it is only natural that the ego of guys pride to protect girls to be lessen or of lesser importance. Guys could protect guys, girls can protect girls because everyone have the almost same rights. That is also why you now see girls chasing guys and not seen as a taboo. But hardly does guys chase after girls these days.

That was a few of the stuff that got me thinking while watching 步步惊心. There were alot more realisation than i thought i would have think about. I am answering every open question that the show left, in my own context.

So now, after making comparisons, the good and the bad between both the era. Would you now ask me, "So now, which era would you still wished to be in?".

I will say......

Book is Fair

2011-12-31T18:39:00.000+08:00

2 books are not mine so don't gasp. Hahaha!

I met onglai and c-gang at techview's bustop. Honestly, after graduating from Bedok North, i never really went to that side of my estate again. The most i had was passing by when i take 15 to TP. Walking there was really foreign. It seemed like the 4 years in Bedok North didn't even existed in memories. Walking from school to techview to eat Fried Beehoon or Japan Auntie's Japanese food or eating Chocolate Ice Cream prata... No wonder i grew fat in Bedok North. All those good food are no longer at techview. The road home has also changed. 2 years only, so much have changed..

We met at 3pm and we walked into Page One's warehouse behind Techview.

We queued under the hot sun and long line. Finally inside, i was flipping through many design books. But i guess the really good ones are already cleared out. After finally choosing the 5 books that i wanted to buy, i suddenly had blood drain again.

It has been so long since i had that.

I quickly bend down but i should have went out the first time it happened. Sorry for getting cgang and onglai worried. And haha thanks for fanning me with the "smelly" books.

Huan helped me to carry the book and paid with Nika and i quickly went outside to sit down. My vision was fading to black and everyone face was hexed-like, my ear couldn't hear anything, every noise suddenly sounded like muffed. Very scary right?

Sat by the curb.

Was it heat stroke? Was it blood pressure decrease? Was it blood sugar level dropped? Was it vertigo? What was it, i don't even know... Maybe i should check out with doctor soon hor?

Walked all of them to 7-11 and then to kopitiam's busstop and sent them off onto CT18 to ChinaTown.

New Year's Eve, I am happy spending that 2 hour plus with you guys and sorry for not counting down with you all but 2011 is ending and i want to spend it with myself.

I've decided...

2011-12-30T23:22:00.005+08:00

11am reached school, saw TP's wide screen and the 3 other more in design school. Urgh, the radiation level is gonna be high man.

My consultation lasted less than 5 minutes for my 2-3 days worth of hard work. There was me, ivan and keith. So we spent the next half an hour talking about design school, to design work to all the way talking about design experiences. I realised that some teacher are better welfare type than being actual lecturers. For that half an hour, i've decided and further confirmed what i want to pursue in my life in the case of design. It made me more determined after hearing real-life experiences of the industries and stuff. But it made me more determined that WorldSkill, sure it does heighten up my portfolio and resume if i ever gotten into Finals but even i didn't, it was a good exposure considering how little practice we were given in TDS.

Had lunch with Ivan and waited until 2 plus for the TPDPA opening ceremony filming. Ivan guest star too! HAHA. Then CH came and he managed to get 2 year 1 DPA to help out. Thank you guys for helping even though you both are rushing somewhere else! :)

My set-up for the first scene.

From CH's phone. Me filming the year 1 who came to help! Thanks Chong Teng and Regine!

Later on, ameer came and me and him both managed to convinced Zibin to come film as well! Soon XM came too and WY too! Thanks guys!

Yea ahaha they hacked my photobooth! The filming went pretty well but now i am abit worried of the post-production, which is the editing part. I hope i do well.

5pm plus we quickly rushed down to Suki-ya at TM to meet the rest of Tehpeng.

Didn't even know TM had that, like a sua ku. The clubbers came later and they went up to eat at BaliThai while the rest of us went outside to the open plaza to seat and wait first.

They came and we took a group photo.

How long since we last met...? How long since we last took a group photo?

It is going to be 3 years since i've met you all, the first group of friends i made in TP. Everyone has grown and are pursuing their own dream and i do hope soon it going to be the last year in TP, hope everyone do well and continue to remember that tehpeng is there and the memories we had during our DPA time.

Now i am about to prepare to welcome the 5th batch of DPA juniors. Time flies hor?

Padam Padam

2011-12-29T01:53:00.001+08:00

I have been watching this since evening!

Plot: Yang Kang Chil just came out from prison after 16 years. He was jailed because of a murder he never did. After released from prison, he goes to Seoul accompanied by his guardian angel, Lee Gook Soo. Meanwhile, Han Ji Min will play Jung Ji Na, a cheerful veterinarian who loves Kang Chil.

I honestly do not know who acted for this drama. I only recognised KimBum from the Boys Over Flower but i wasn't a huge fan anyway. BUT OMG. In this drama, he and the lead actor who is acting Kang Chil is so good!

I love the realistic portrayal of KangChil and his mother's love-hate relationship. It is so believable!

For now right, i can't be bothered to say "OMG THIS IS A MUST WATCH! THE BEST MAN" Lol, even my ma and bro said i say that exact sentence for whatever drama i watch.

There was a scene in episode 5, part 5, it was deep man. I love plot that makes the characters so deep. LURVE IT LOVE IT!!

*

Guess what?! I don't have worldskill training tomorrow. I tried to do the 2006 day 1 and 3 paper but it turned me off so badly. Sometimes i don't know to say yeah for my up-to-my-mood attitude or say nah for something repulsive as to doing a logo for a mock up gym company called Club InstinX. Oh gawd.

Anyway i shall patiently wait for episode 7 and 8's sub for Padam Padam and i hope the repulsion of the grossness of paper 1 and 3 wears off by tmr morning so i can work on them to go for open consultation on friday.

Fiend & Foal: Explained

2011-12-28T01:54:00.003+08:00

All the bad emotions is partially caused by my impending menses that i am suffering right now. Salompas heal the world, HAIL SALOMPAS!

But the main reason i was so upset, i decided to fuck it and move on. Nothing is absolute and so are friendship. I am not gonna horde over something perishable. But it was also my own fault for expecting too much and too confidently believing in it in the first place. HAH.

Thanks nika for the message! Honestly honestly, it really cheered me up! So many thanks and xoxo to you! :)

Fiend 2: I spent my entire today finishing 2 papers - 2006 Pt 1 & 2008 (design TYS) for the Worldskill competition training.

Really like the first one! Shall edit it well and upload to portfolio ^^

Urgh don't even ask me why the main colour for both paper i chose Green. I just kinda got the GREEN vibe feel today so green it was!

Spent 4 hours for the first the second was about 3-4hours. Good thing i am within the 7 hours limit. IKR, this competition has a time limit too. Training for that. HURGAZ.

Okay this shouldn't be considered "fiend" but the thought of *ahem* just made this thing collectively feels fiend-ish. }:x

Fiend 3: Doing my work half way, a small chicak (lizard) crawled across my table. I know i am fearless but at home i just wanna act like a xiaomeimei and be scared. That thing looked at me you know?? Wah lao. But i decided to harden my poor soul and chase it to the wall and now it is gone. I just hope it wouldn't crawl into my bed or something. AHHHHHHH :(

For some reason, my mac has the right temperature to bred very tiny flies. I know it sound gross, trust me i am grossed out too. Maybe that's why the small lizard is trying to eat the tiny flies. YES EAT THEM. I am so sick of squashing on average, 3 tiny flies every night.

Is it because i open my window until 3am that the only light illuminating from my block is from my room? And i am charging my lousy mac battery 24/7, is this why my mac is turning into a meeting place for the flies gang? Hmm :(

Therefore...

I decided to clean up my room tomorrow. But i ought to do the remaining 3 paper by my Worldskill training on thursday and friday right? Meh.

What a good time to say "SO MUCH THINGS TO DO, SO LITTLE TIME!"

Foals:

Just in case you didn't know.

I dled Sims 3 Pets and the first animal i created was a dog and a human. And the dog was my dream dog, Old English Sheepdog. But for some reason, it looked really fugly in Sims. So i deleted and created a horse and a human.

Here is my champion foal.

I bought another horse called Brownie. As a training jockey, i had to raise fund by buying/selling horses, so that is why brownie is with me. But the thing is... she spent so much time with me, i grew attachment and i don't wanna sell her anymore.

But my real horse is Zefan. He is on the screen with my sims. Chio right?

He is already considered a god horse and so is my god like Sims so i am already getting bored. I even tried having lifts in my Sims house.

Okay i have to go back to doing work but for now, goodnight.

Fiend & Foal

2011-12-27T02:47:00.000+08:00

2011-12-26T23:26:00.002+08:00

I reached out my hand and there was no one there. Once again.

Ho Ho COUGH COUGH

2011-12-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

And....

Merry Christmas?

LOL.

No hype, no feel at all. The best thing was prolly waking up to Om Mani Pad Me Hun Chant in the afternoon since today is 初一 of the month. HEHEHH. Even my cousin who came up to fetch us to ahma house said my family has a different "culture" as compared to other families in singapore. :O

We had a family gathering at Ah Ma house! It was pretty simple lunch fare with food cooked by 2nd Uncle and Aunty and we already exchanged gifts at 3pm. I got a cute massager that has light function too! LOL so now i can actually massage my aching shoulder and calf muscles in the dark HAHAHAHA. Sounds abit weird.

I took a nap at 1pm and 7pm. In between, i went down to find AhGong with Moon, Bro and YiMa! Oh yeah i went to cut my hair too! Got a scolding since you are not supposed to cut hair on the 初一... But considering how i really didn't know i don't think it will work right... the superstition... Hm?

Anywayyyy ah ma is the coldest place i've ever been in Singapore with just plain wind from mother nature. I swear it was colder than Genting or my camp bunk with 4 air-con blasting at 20 deg celsius.

Merry Christmas everybody!

p/s: I find all those people who wish Merry Christmas on the 24th of December really dumb! You made me confused you know? But for some reason hor, i think 24 looked nicer for Christmas than 25. IMHO

Fallen Generation

2011-12-24T15:37:00.000+08:00

I was watching AFA (American's funniest video) while munching my biscuit during yesterday's tea break and it was showing the "Worst Christmas Gift ever received" segment. I was feeling so appalled but those videos okay.

Seriously what is wrong with those kids? Or just, what is wrong with all the youth these days?

So sad to see the degrading of the entire generation of youth in such clear views.

No longer are the days where kids still upload those filial piety acts to their elders especially their parents. No longer are the days where youth treat friendship with utmost loyalty to the point it is possible to 赴汤蹈火,在所不惜.

So superficials youth these days. Chasing money, chasing fame, chasing something so surface. You know what? When you die, you are not even gonna bring any of those shits you spend half your life chasing with you down.

Don't you feel sad or just wanna sigh all day long while looking at youth wasting their life away?

2011-12-24T02:39:00.000+08:00

A very very long chase for a shadow i could not reach, could not feel.

Scanteak x Temasek Design School

2011-12-23T17:23:00.000+08:00

After camp i slept for a good 11 hours. Woke up for a while and went back to nap!

My kampong who came down to support!

At Scanteak tent infront of Takashimaya! Do come down to Takashimaya and take picture with our elves! Ends at 24 Dec!

Scanteak was so nice, they had buffet who us and our family members.

YAY PRAWN YAY!

HEHEHHEE

HEHEHHEHEHE

Victoria's Angels

Me and Godvid!

Me and Boss!

YAY PRIZE PRESENTATION! Given by Jamie (My client)!

Ooo i honestly like the paper bag!

Thank you Jen, Huan, Junheng, Nika, Enmian, Jaslyn, PMG, HongYi, RuYue and JeanJie who came down to support! :D LOVE YOU ALL MUACK MUACK!

Said byebye to my family+relative and went to walk Orchard Road with Onglais and Henghenggg!

HAHAHHAHA JUNHENG THIS POSE IS FUNNY! Yess we went to eat at Cold Stone.

Chocolate Devotion! It would have been nice to share this medium sized ice cream with my boyfriend who is non-existence. Omg, so lonely to eat one chunk of it. Couldn't finish this $8 thing you know! :(

We shopped at Orchard Central (that's my first time there! GASP) then we walked back to Ion and shopped for awhile! I bought another oxford shoes, this time it is brown and guess what? IT IS HELLA CHEAP! Me gusta :O

5 is shall a fast bus from my house to town. It is like the bus that scream hola on 65's ass!

Can you believe i still have assignments to do during the holiday and it is for world skills. what the fuck

PY SSSS GA SSS

2011-12-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

Monday 19/12/2011:

Reached school at 10.30am and went printing the product photography and name tags and stuff.

Me, junheng, enmian only went down to join our empire at around 1pm plus. It was bunking time and yep, first time i saw my empire.

We had a quick ice breaking before station games followed by TP Wide station game. At night, we finally had dinner and bubble tea bought for us through the rain from our FAs :') and we continued to do the Retreat planning for DOTC Refresh.

At night it was "Finding our real FA" game. It was mimicking night walk and not bad lah. Although sometimes i can't really see the clues or whatever in the dark.

Froze to death in my bunk and my hair were all frostbite. I didn't even know that all 4 air-cons were on and on full blast of 20deg cel. O BLESS MY SOUL.

Tuesday 20/12/2011:

Woke up and washed up and the time the girls went down, the boys from Pyga were already making breakfast for us! Awwww~~

Followed by Morning PT! I was pulled out by Ivan even before i could start doing nay head rotation.

Pulled out for creative work!

So basically everyone were mass dancing, morning PT, design dance, school dance this and that, me and ivan were running about trying to get the material to trace the drawing for the TP Wide event painting. Prog Head, Jian En came to bring us the huge cloth for us to cut into 6 equal parts.

The reason why i was pulled instead of the other 2 year 1s creative subcomm was since we both (me and ivan) experienced DOTC1 before, it makes more sense to get the 2 year 1s to experience right?

Anyway, we heard about the Big Clash were happening at 10.30am so leaving us with 15 minutes, we traced the tp wide stuff FAST AND FURIOUS. "Like a zai kia" - Ivan.

TADA ALL 6 of them done!

I went back to join Pyga who were cheering and thankfully, was the last empire to go for the Big Clash game! :D

Pyga won against the subcomms! PYYYYY GA GA GA GA GA GA GA GA GA PYGA PYGA!

TP Wide Event started soon enough after lunch and we went around TP trying to collect materials for the final painting of our flag.

Finally at 5.30pm, we started painting and it was a time lapse video thingy. All the empire gathered there to do our stuff. Then something actually happened.... My empire didn't receive the right instruction from the main comms and was the only empire that painting inversely.

Me and Ivan was running about trying to find replacement item to redo Pyga's portion and until we finally found all the materials, we looked down from level 5 and this was what we saw...

Pyga is in Red!

HELL YEAH OMG! I can't even express how proud i was to see Pyga spend 5 minutes to repaint the still-wet inverted flag correctly. HOMG! :") I took this picture and showed them when i was back to our meeting place and i am so glad they were no longer feeling so disappointed but happy! :}

At night after dinner, we had the retreat presentation! Pyga was the only empire with story line! SWAG SNAKE OR WHUT!? ^^

Honestly, i am very amazed at how enthu this bunch of year 1s were! Since the bulk of Pyga were Year 1s, they really made it Pyga worked! Slept at 2am and woke up at 8.30am. Shiok.

Wednesday 21/12/2011:

On my way to wahs up, the final piece of the diadem were on the ground of level 1.

We had mass dance and all the dance plus hand sign song all those till afternoon when the entire Camp Aten sat together in the LT, eating our lunch while watching Aaron Tan's video LOL.

MASS GAME TIME!!

It was the same mass game we had last year and they really took all our suggestions from last year and improved this year!

The mat was still bad cause i came out with tons of abrasion and scratches on my knees~ But hellyeah mass game is fun to the MAX!

Pyga waiting after the mass game for our empire shoot.

Look at my pure white schools after the mass game!

Threw that once i got home! Time to buy another camp shoes!

Pyga debriefed until 7.30pm. This time, we didn't managed to write first impression and little notes from everyone since we had a curfew by the main comms! Damn sad okay! :( I kept Kwa'Me's card from DOTC 1 2010 and i still take it out and read it some time. Now i don't have any physical memory from DOTC 1 2011 :(((((

But anyway! PYGA!

Really a interesting mix of empire! Can't wait to see some more event rolling on!

Aten two

2011-12-21T02:31:00.001+08:00

Eight thirty, breakfast, ppt but off to creative work, big clash, lunch, tp wide, dinner, retreat presentation, night concert, laugh until cry, debrief.

I shall just fill the indepths when in back.

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Camp Aten

2011-12-20T02:23:00.001+08:00

Hey heyyy, im lying at the fourth floor comdi room's carpet flooring.

Basically i packed my camp bag four hrs before camp but i went to sch early for submission.

Im in Pyga! Yayyyyyy~ My empire is pretty awesome and for some reason, everyone in this camp seems to warm up VERY FAST!

Imma gonna sleep now~~

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Chase Over Air

2011-12-19T02:17:00.001+08:00

Hi, i am utterly exhausted. :(

Submission is tomorrow for corporate identity and as of 11pm Sunday, i finally finished it. Without stopping, right till now 2am, i have been doing the DOC empire logo. Anyway here's the journey so far. I'm not making any sense haiyer.

Friday printing at Peace Centre with Ivan. HOLY SHIT my poster is friggin chio on Conqueror Laid paper. But printing on my own paper for A2 cost me $14. Hur :(

We printed, ate at the shop beside Rocher's Famous Beancurd. Then we shopped at Art Friend before we rushed home to continue on our booklet.

Saturday, did it as fast as i could because i wanted to print and be back home from HGM by 7.30pm. (HEHEH MY SHOW WAS HAVING THE LAST EPISODE)

The print was AWESOME~~ Plus the person there is nice, like make friend with the printer le. ^^

Sneak peek. The black on gold was HEAVEN~

Saturday night trying to do up the out of the box item.

Can you guess what it is?

This morning, i woke up at 4am after sleeping at only 2am and by 6am, i was walking along Ion Orchard towards Takashimaya Civic Plaza.

Honestly, i would be a night taxi driver than a day one. I would be a night tourist than a day one. The wind was so breezy and chilly and the streets were empty and it was just peace and quiet as compared to the day HOMG.

Finally reached Taka

Client and David was already at 4am. WHUUTTT??

David

6am plus, we were about 60% done?

THIS IS VERY COOL! Make sure you guys come down to support us and take picture with this HUGEEEEE THING!

TADA!

OMG! My idea was envisioned out! On the day you are there, remember to write out your wish on the dream bubble and take a seat and take picture~

Anyway spent like half an hour trying to fix up the top deco. Experience gained when dealing with contractors wow.

Closing up the tentage at 10am plus!

I cabbed back for free with David since our house are pretty nearby! Wah seriously David is a really good lecturer and a good friend! (Y)

Came back, bathed, ate maggi mee and nap.

The moment i woke up, i ate again LOL and finished my booklet and started product photography.

Favourite set up of all time. HAHHA THAT'S MY TABLE LAMP.

I don't know if i can show yet but the whole group will see it tomorrow anyway. It is not finalised by so far so good. Yep this is the empire logo i think. I got not much too-much-info-clues either.

Honestly, i really would love to write whatever happened each day in detail but i am feeling so flustered and tired right now.

Tomorrow the moment i wake up, i will have to pack my bag for camp - DOTC1 and then go to school early to print my product photography while carrying my camp bag and my A2 board and A3 files and if possible, pop by TPDPA's meeting.

Hi holiday i love you and i need you so badly. SO SO BADLY.

I want holiday.

Okay bye, i'll be back in 3 days from camp!

psst: Do come down to Takashimaya Civic Plaza on the 22nd Dec at around 5.30pm onwards to support our installation and also hear us speak on stage! WOAH.

From Galaxy

2011-12-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

Okay... i'm trying out if this would work. If i can send a post thru my phone, then i prolly can blog during next week's camp.

Oh ya, here is my corpid manual this monday.

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Resisting

2011-12-15T01:51:00.000+08:00

My love for Berry Weight these days is criminallllll!

Anyway, did my final project for kinetic typography just a day before submission. Did until 4am before i took a nap and woke up just in time to watch 2NE1 performing at Times Sq, NY! Woah, it would be damn awesome if i can actually wake up every time to do my work with a concert to watch. Totally made me so like a pumped up kids. AHAH

Okay here is my super imposing plus my magazine cover then.... the motion reel for my magazine!

Yesss i love the kimono that i spent one saturday drawing it. Heard it? DRAWING IT! HAHAHAH OMG. I drew 2 more stuff for my motion reel! Watch it!

The super imposing board that i did. Yup you will see it ALL around Singapore! HAHANOTHAHA

Okay here's my motion reel which i whipped up in a midnight's time when i had tons of feel~~

Future Beat from Koh Min Yu on Vimeo.
Credit: Paper Thin by Flume (BGM)

This is a motion reel for my kinetic typography class. Yea I know that apparently this isn't ktypo but that's what my brief was. This motion reel features a mock-up magazine which i named "Future Beat" featuring self created typefaces for the masthead of this magazine.

This magazine aims to showcase the talent of these musicians such as Flume, Daisuke Tanabe and Berry Weight of this more obscure electronica music genre called "Future Beat".

Future Beat is a genre that uses beats instead of voices in their music. And this genre is my new muse! Hope you guys enjoy!

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How's it? Doesn't that intrigue you to wanna find out about this genre of music? Hehhehe go listen to Berry Weight ^^

Is me

2011-12-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

"Home is where i wanna be... Home is not house but a feeling"

I finally finished my 30 pages manual which costed me $30 and bind them using reverse chinese binding and i poked my finger thrice but there was no blood. I also did up a mini mock up of letter and envelope and they looked really mini, just nice for elves to hold and read.

Today at 3pm, i am supposed to show 80% done of my kinetic typography but once again, i am trapped in this little cage i built in for myself. Flash is definitely one medium that slap the vision in my head, flat till it bleeds.

As much as i wanna say that creative process shouldn't be rushed but this is a school assignment for some half ass fucked up module that lost its meaning the day i was taught nothing useful.

Don't you all ever wanted to just breathe and slowly let very beautiful design float into your head naturally?

Well at least i know for myself that i am not those people who frantically look through design books or online articles for inspirations and end up doing similar stuff to those things. I know my end product might look very raw or just unpolished in some cases but at least i know those designs came out truly from my own head and definitely from the deepest depth of my heart. The design i do is me that's why it's so fresh. Why would you want to produce stuff people done before? All and all, that's my own design theory/principle and practicality that i think shouldn't be shortchanged for grades and marks or just the chase to get lecturers damn favors.

Year 2.2 has changed me and made me more firm in what i am going to believe in and how i am going to act as a person and a designer in the future.

This post is done under the condition of frustration that i have to complete this dumb assignment but there isn't any flow in my mind yet that makes me jump. But, i am not going to force myself to produce dumb copied stuff just for the sake of handing up.

Alejandro

2011-12-11T01:28:00.001+08:00

Stayed back on Thursday to wrap the elves standee with Ivan. It was supposedly a fast thing because we both want to go off asap but we wrapped 16 standees for 2hours. Homg.

Friday we came back at 9.30am, client was there too. This time, serena and sean came over to help us out and we were done like super fast!

Had lunch with them and then back to Power Onglais hangout and chills for awhile before Me and Boss went down to Antalis to get our paper!

I bought a total of ALOT of A4 papers plus 3 A2.5 size paper. Total was $50 plus! But guess what i paid after the student discount and also the Face Off competition voucher?

drumroll~~

$4.50!

WAHAHAHAHHAHAAH

We cabbed back to school since we left our stuff back in the studio. Y Y Y Y Y.

Went down to Century to meet PMG for The Apple of my Eye movie!

Did i mention that Century sq's cinema got the best hotdog buns??

Anyway the movie felt a little short for me. I love good romance movie and i kinda like how this is not a happy ending because reality sucks. But good show lah. Good movies that make girl fantasize and wish they're the lead actress with the handsome male lead. Heh.

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Rushed my corporate manual and rushed down to HGM at 5.30. In half an hour, i reached there, printed my stuff for an hour and took a 15minutes ride back! HOLAAAAA. I was back home at 7pm! Seriously hor, Hougang gang should consider to take 87. So fast! Your 1 and a half hours ride to school would prolly reduce to 30-45minutes. :D

Been doing nothing since then.

I feel so drained.............

Back to do my 0% ktypo and doc creative stuff.... bee why ee

The Battle to Close Window

2011-12-08T01:22:00.002+08:00

So i was saying......

Didn't bothered to go school today since it will be 20 million times more productive spending my ENTIRE day at home and do work instead of going to school for a mere and measly 1-3hours for nothing.

Did up my typography using Fontlab and was so engrossed doing the magazine for hours that would prolly show up in my adv reel for only 5 seconds. But great feeling when i am doing something i like. Drawn the magazine cover myself *v* SO PROUD OF MYSELF :')

I honestly can't wait to go for Hon's class tomorrow! At least i know i would be going to learn something new and interesting.

Yesterday i spoke to a lecturer who literally made my glasses fell (in my head).

"Um well you see you know, you can learn kinetic typography on your own from the website. I know you guys can you know. You see, i know you guys can learn from the web very fast."

Honestly... i am happy you so 看得起 us for our ability to learn things from internet. But then, excuse me, what's the point of coming to school then? HMMM??

I don't fucking pay $1100 every semester to go to school to learn WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE LEARNING FROM THE FUCKING INTERNET ALRIGHT?! Oh guess what?! The internet and lecturer was pretty much the same! (ASTONISHED) How about this, return back me... say... $1000?

That aside, positions, statuses, money really change a person. Even to a old person. Like a person who lived past half a century. Scary. It is rare to see people who still stay humble even after being given those fame and glory and status. That's why i hate anything that will 牵涉到 those. But too bad, life is full of those shit no?

有了(好)兄弟，绝对无敌

2011-12-06T02:59:00.000+08:00

So after class today at around 2pm plus, Junheng, Chin, Nika, Jen, YueLi, Enmian, Huan came over to help me and ivan to paint the remaining 21 boards!

Half way, me and ivan left for creative meeting with felix but 7 of them were still painting the elves! :D

After we came back from the meeting 2 hours later, we continued painting with them!

You don't even know how touched i am! You guys were painting these elves so meticulously, doing layers after layers of editing of the white spaces and the red and the green even though you guys were just helping. You guys immediately came to help after i asked for help on sunday and throughout the 2pm-11pm which was a freaking 9 hours of painting, you guys just kept helping us to paint as much as possible without doing your own load of assignments from major class! Even though you guys were tired, you all still continued to paint and help out!

我真的真的很感激，我能交到的你们这些好朋友是我的福分, 有你们陪着我度过我的poly life真的很安慰! 在有你们陪我走完我最后的1.5years of school life, i really got nothing else to say. I really can't thank you guys enough! :"D

This project wouldn't have been so successful in the production without the VSC Year 1s help and definitely without Onglais and Cgang's help!

These are all dedicated to you all!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

And here is my Sunday

2011-12-05T01:09:00.001+08:00

A dose of work, a dose of nap, a dose of simple lunch, a dose of quick teabreak, a dose of sunday drama show.

Hmmmmm i realised that i worked pretty slowly because i rather spend more time thinking and getting it right the first time than to coming back and edit in the future. If you can do it right the first time, why not? But also, i think i space out and drift into thinking too much. LOL i was just thinking about the roses that bloomed outside again!

And i am so thankful that onglais volunteer to come help us out with painting the remaining 21 elves tmr! :") LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH. AI SHI LE *Squeeze until burst* :}

Elves Factory

2011-12-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

Tied my hair until i reached school at 9am. HAHAH. Ai mei bu yao ming.

The whole event started at 10am with David briefing us about the stuff to do. Ivan and I was just making sure there were enough boards and stuff and everything was okay.

Our paper work!

Briefing by Boss David

Priming the boards!

Tracing the designs!

My workspace! LOL, i was doing the segregation for the transparency and colored version. Ivan went for DOC Main comm meeting so i was left alone boohoo! LOL jk but yeah, many small things popped out but ALL WAS WELL ALL WAS WELL~~

Finished cutting plus sanding the edges (OMG the machine i used for sanding was like Osim massenger x 1000). Painting painting painting~

Can you see the painted version? ^^

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1/32!

We still have another 21 more to paint!

I am sooooo thankful for the VSC Year 1s who sacrificed their saturday to help us out so much in this project. From helping us to prime, to carrying the heavy wooden plank inside from the rain, to painting and even sanding the boards too! Thank you soooo much! #VSCpride!

YES! ALL THESE ARE HANDCRAFTED DESIGNED PIECES!

So guy please support us at Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza from 19-24November! Come down to take a picture with all these cute elves and see what's in store for you guys at that event! I will leave the rest of the elves as a mystery so COME DOWN TO TAKE A LOOK!

Exhausted but so fulfilled!

Oh yea and the maincomm LOVED the DOC story me and ivan came out with. YESS PEOPLE LOOK FORWARD FOR CAMP 'cause it will be damn awesome!

Fake Winter

2011-12-02T23:31:00.004+08:00

So...... Short update of my current status.

I still got a bunch of stuff to do even though project 2's submission was just over. But i am really excited to do Corporate Identity and the last project of Kinetic Typography. I am still proud of myself for sticking to PURE TYPOGRAPHY in a kinetic TYPOGRAPHY class. I know it gonna garner me less marks because type is seen as "lesser effort" but whatever lah okay. At least i stayed true to myself and also the actual MODULE and stuff i am supposed to be producing.

Been staying in school till 8pm or 9pm plus for WorldSkills training and DOC Creative meeting.

Thursday WorldSkills training and it was pretty good since i actually learnt something out of it. I was quite amazed i could come out with a very decent logo in 5minutes. LOL.

Today stayed back with Ivan and Junheng to finish up the DOC stuff. Very interesting to see a camp from the other angle. All the subcomms please be excited because I AM!!! I actually dreamt of my freshies (which idk who are they) last night! :O

Tomorrow i am going back to school at 8.30am to paint and cut with industrial machinery my life away until 5pm for my CDI project! LAI EVERYBODY please come down to support me and Ivan's design for a furniture company called Scanteak at Ngee Ann City, Civic Plaza from 18-24Dec!

OOOOOO SO EXCITING!

As of now, i need sleep more than anything but for some reason, my sleep is never compact. :( I will fall asleep tonight wishing i wouldn't dream so as to let my poor brain rest. Ohw Ohw My Sayang Brain~

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Oh yea. Here's a picture of my picture held by the person who's friend developed my picture. HEH HEH GEDDIT?

Ah yessi they are doing experimental photography. VERY FUN HOR?! iJealous

/Choo Choo of Thoughts

2011-11-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

I was thinking why these days, i am complaining my workload is never ending. Of course it is true. But on the other hand, i was thinking when i was in year 1 or even to year 2.1, no matter my pile of submission, i will be very energetic even to the late night, say 3am? Or even i will be able to watch a movie every night.

Now i can't even last to 2am. And the amount of modules seems to be the same.

Maybe now in Year 2.2, major life i ask myself more? As in, i do more than i ever will do, i stop and look and think about what it is more? Or is it that i have worked slower?

I for one, think i've worked faster than before. Second, i kinda produce more stuff than before. Thirdly, maybe i am getting older.

But hey the perks of getting older is wiser. And wiser meant i see design more in-depth than i was in Year 1 or even Year 2.1

YAY TO OLD! YAY TO AGEING!

Pumped Up KIDS

2011-11-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

Dinner with Onglais and Cgang on... er... Monday!

Tuesday was MAMA2011 in Singapore. WOW? Leessang came HOMG and they won Best Rap Performance \m/ MOVEMENT FAMILY FOREVER! My forever girl crush 2NE1 won Best Vocal and Song of the Year. DUH LIKE DUHHH OF COURSE MAN! BLACKJACK!

I was trying my hardest to do work while watching the show and thankfully half of the time they were speaking in Korean which i couldn't understand so it wasn't distracting. Problem was, i tried to spazz with mama who were at home then with me about my favourite groups but ma was like just reading her book. Bro went out running so i was highing alone on twitter. Aw so sad... Talking to a computer. #foreveralone.

Today,

Hon approved my logo already. Lol that's quick considering how i only have a few sketches. Honestly speaking, i learnt alot from him and whatever i learnt from him were eye-opener!

DOC Mass Meeting with the new batch of DOC subcomm team. Wow excitingggggg!

There are 3 of us in Creative subcomm but all 3 of us are GL as well. But then they asked us to sit over to Creative okay lor. High on both! ^^

Yea really awesome and excited! WOOT WOOT

Okay assignment time.

SEMO

2011-11-30T00:48:00.000+08:00

Hate it when my gizmo die or on the edge of dying. Not even having the mood to do my work all due tmr and im just trying my freaking best to solve the problem. Technology will always be the bane but also the tug of my life.

Not of Any World

2011-11-28T01:14:00.001+08:00

I have strategically arranged my saturday to do my 72 logos and my sunday to do my storyboarding. Today was Sunday so i did the storyboard.

1pm - Angst
2pm - Depression (I think it is an overdose of Kauan's music)
3pm - Lost
4pm - Realisation
5pm - Normal

I was layered with thick blanket of different emotions today.

I cannot believed that for a moment just now, i was actually going back against what i have stood firm believing in. I actually dived into doing ANIMATED storyboarding WHAT.THE.FUCK.SERIOUSLY. No wonder i was feeling all queasy, that explain the angst, depression and lost from 1-3pm.

I was so... jumpy i couldn't sit down properly to think and continue my already done 8 frame. Yea.

I SCRAPED THAT AND REDID IT. This time, not on paper and pen but straight to flash and did KINETIC TYPOGRAPHY. Oh please, you don't even know how 踏实 and 脚踏实地 i felt. SOOOOO AWESOMEEEEEEEE FEELING.

Yea that was 4pm onwards till now.

I was ranting about how much i wish i was living in the era of ancient time where civilisation only begin. At the time where people ride on horses instead of taking taxis. Sitting in sedan and parading down unpaved roads. Where i would spend my morning in the picturesque pavilion reading and writing poems and playing zither then spend my afternoon doing embroidery or gardening and in the evening, i would be practicing martial arts. At night time, my warrior or scholar son and wholesome daughter will come back home and we will have dinner lit up by candles. Scrolling in the garden and watch the moon or maybe send a pigeon to my hometown.

Those were the time where people of different blood bond under the oath to protect each other. The era where integrity and loyalty is above all. Where people's moral are greater than heaven and the pride of being in the same community is strong and worth mentioning. Everyone lends a helping hand even when we were mere strangers.

Those eras of yakuza, ancient time, kampong... whatever. Those times were so good. Because only those time, youth of my age are mature and think beyond their age. Where heart are not about self but others first. Where filial piety is price over anything, where loyalty to friends meant death to save the other. When all the morals and values i look upon can only be found.

So what's the big deal with having so much pixel life, or all the knowledge you can acquire or even the best technology to travel out of outer space. These days, people can't even save their own surrounding let alone the massive space given to us. Nobody is truly happy these days. Because everyone's trust is wearing thin, everyone's happiness is spread across too wide a virtual life to be fully contented with what they have physically and those that are meaningful.

*

Anyway i am determined to go watch "You are the apple of my eye" and "Already Famous" in the cinema. Even if i have to go watch alone.

Hey! When are you stopping?

2011-11-27T00:22:00.000+08:00

2.2 really no joke. Major life really no joke.

Anyway, have you ever wondered if your current living space which is your house right now, reflects your family beliefs and how they act and behave? I strongly believe so leh. For example, my house is very asiany with kinda few fengshui stuff. Okay, on a scale and range of 1-100, how much do i believe in fengshui? I'll say 50%. I do agree that somethings does really happen because it DID happen but the other half didn't happen so i'm reserving that 50% up first. Back to the house thing. Yea, i really think so too. Like my house is super personalised with what my family is. Asian and hmmm, filled with bookcase and just very us lah. What about your house? Do you think your house represent the entire idea of what your family is? While thinking about other people's houses, the way the house is decorated or not really went well with the idea i had about the person's family lifestyle! Very cool! You ought to try it.

I wonder what will be my future house looks like and will it fit nicely with what my family's lifestyle too?

SO....

18/72 of logos done. 0/36 storyboarding done. 0 Worldskills practice paper done.

It just goes on and on and on even when im torn inbetween the insatisfied urge to watch my show, i will have greater immense urge to WANT to do my assignments. So it goes on and on and on and on...

The Familiar Strangers

2011-11-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

TPRawks finally ended!

Tuesday:

After duty at auditorium from 8am-10.15am, the 4 of us went to design to do the Design TPRawks Duty.

Tuesday was Afrogreen.

Wednesday:

Last day of TPRawks and the 4 of us finally got the TPRawks t-shirt to wear for duty.. lol. Yea. Since i have been there for 3 days doing the sticker name thingy plus asking them whether they need water, I probably could have recognised the Rawkers' faces.

After duty ended we went back to Design school to help out with our own side of Tprawks event. AND OMG LOL i was documented by the Corps Comm Photographer! I honestly didn't know he was shooting me inside the frame. But good arh, memories.

Okay here's the hectic part. Supposedly at 12pm, i would have went to class after duty but Hon cancelled the class so I was down for the next duty which was starting at 1.15pm. So meanwhile, i went to find Chin and Enmian to go print our stuff for DOC interview.

Print and wait until 1.45pm. David suddenly said to me to go meet the client for our CDI project at 2pm. So i couldn't go for the interview and the duty and we both rushed down to the >60 Design Centre's meeting room. First time there! :D

Our client came and offered us the famous Tanjong Pagar Dim Sums. HAHAHA Good right? And OMG they actually chose to do one of my idea is full scale sia! Must come down support okay! Details soon!

We were meeting until 3.15pm before we back to class for Kinetic Typography lesson.

Talking about Kinetic Typography.... I cannot express how disappointed i am in the school and this damn curriculum being "outdated" thing. Why for any reason, must we be the batch to suffer under these circumstances? It is not like we pay lesser than the other batches before or later!

Kinetic Typography, the only module that i decided to come to Graphic Design major. Now what? Because our school is gonna change the subject, they are not gonna teach us After Effects. Damn do you even know how disappointed i am?

Okay that aside, if you said you gonna teach me Ktypo in Flash i got nothing to say but 3rd of lesson and i'm actually learning how to do animations instead of ktypo essentials. :(

>:( Very sad and very disappointed.

I can ~sigh~ up an entire Hot-Air Ballon and send it flying.

Oh well... i shall just make do with everything right now anyway.

Hmm....... i am so tired i can just "MOSHI MOSHI, YAWN DESU~"

The War for Toilet in the Morning.

2011-11-22T01:04:00.001+08:00

Pull the seat belt down to my lap
Rollercoaster speeding so fast
Take me through the loop de loop

Sitting solo wind on my face
Don't know if the coaster is safe
I smile, or I try

Bring on the fire, take me through water
I'm in this alone; it's just getting hotter

It's not the first, sure hell ain't the last
I go back around again
Red, yellow, green, lights flash
Everyone's watching, from the ground below
They don't know what's going on, but I know

They talk about the things that they see
So convinced in what they believe
Just my rollercoaster and me

All the letters in sealed envelopes
Someday I'll watch all the secrets float
In the air, down to the floor

Pre

Chorus

Some are just well oiled machines
But there ain't no net under these beams
Just zipping through the loop de loop de loop

Chorus

Sitting solo wind on my face
Don't know if the coaster is safe
I smile, or I try

Non-stop repeating. I realised Girls sounds like The Decemberist and the Decemberist sounds like Fleet Foxes and Fleet Foxes sounds like the void sound of my heart.

Woke up at 5.30am when i was supposed to wake up at 6.30am. Either way, i reached school way before 8am and waited for the rest to start duty. My duty was to "Hello please come and write down your name! Peel it off and stick it to your shirt! Do take the water if you want~ XX colour on the left, XX colour on the right". I didn't even know the time flew from 8am to 9.30am. So glad to see so many tehpengs!

After duty, i went to be twin's assistant at the sports complex while he was shooting ivan. OMG the sun was soarching until the track was melting onto all our nice looking shoes. WADAFUQ

And i don't like the feeling of sleeping in class but i can't help it even though it was just a 12 to 3. Tmr onwards, it will be 12-6pm. Bless my eyes and my tired out mind. Zi Zhao Ma Fan.

Lai, 2 more days of 6.30am then i'll be less sleepy-angst because waking up and the first thing i didn't see was Sunlight. That alone was enough to piss me and start off my entire day on the wrong side.

Jay #1

2011-11-21T00:48:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday my dear big eye Jayjay

And this is Ah Ray, Jay's big brother. Love this photo so much.

Being kids is always fun so enjoy my dearest nephews. Reaching quarter life of me right now, sometimes i don't feel all things are funny and the must to acknowledge every comments said with a smile. The more things i grew to know, the more choices i'm given, the more ways of reciprocating anything is too, up to my preference, up to my mood, up to the sound/tone/words perceived. 18, neither a kid nor adult.

In a decade or so, you guys will grow up, so grow up well and enjoy life. Your most fond memories would have been playing barefooted at the playground instead of playing ipads. Love you guys nonetheless :}

Wax Free Ears

2011-11-19T22:44:00.001+08:00

It would mean everything to me if we could take a holiday
Cos you and I bone tired every night isn't my idea of play
And even our smallest dream is getting lean, never sees the light of day
So it would mean everything to me
You can fight but you won't always win
Somehow life finds a way to beat you
But I'll come join you in the ring
Guess it shows just how much i need you
There are days I would pay anything just to leave it all behind
There are times I can't find any light to get me through the daily grind
I know you feel it too, seen just how long it takes you to unwind
So it would mean everything to me

I've got so many new songs to listen too! Lips, Girls, M83, Cults, Daisuke Tanabe, Flume so naise~

What about it?

2011-11-19T19:17:00.000+08:00

I've updated my portfolio onto a new site. Check it yo! http://cargocollective.com/kohminyu

Spent my saturday listening to Girls, cleaning my dirt-filled fan, swept the floor, smell the rain before closing it quickly when it started to flood in, trying to learn some flash before Kinetic Typo starts and also uploading my works.

I still don't have the feel to eat dinner. ?v?

A Quick Brown Fox Jumped over the lazy dog

2011-11-19T02:36:00.001+08:00

One of the lineup for Laneway 2012.. i am very tempted but i am not a concert-goer you know. Plus i am a budding miser and spending so much money at once is painful to me especially if it is something that i have not researched deeply about or is very sure about.

BUT HOR, nice song albeit too short. :(

Submission ended but my time with mac will never end. Finished watching Hana Kimi last night till 4am. Woke up and caught up with all the episodes of Kampong Ties and The Oath i've missed this week. Then... Crows Zero and Crows Zero 2. DAMN YOU OGURI SHUN YOU THIS WEIRDLY APPEALING SEXY BOY!

I like fighting show and Crows Zero is like WOAH. Shiokalaosai only~ The movie i've watched with the most punches wielded. I was equally exhausted like the cast fighting every 10seconds in the show. Nice heart workout!

I should do smthg productive, maybe like ironing the pile of clothes or read the library book i'm returning back soon. Most prolly i will be sitting and watch more movies. O LYF O LYF Y O Y?

p/s: I think my 1TB external harddrive is at the brink of pixel death. I should have known when this 1TB thing sold at $100 so. Don't play with me when it comes to gadgets. Even more so when all my favourite movies and show are inside it. hmph

This past 4 days...

2011-11-18T16:53:00.000+08:00

Has been insanely good and nice. I spent on average 11 hours in school this week and going home when the sunsets and moonlit at 10pm-11pm plus. I regularly have pizza but most of the time it was just cup noodles. Most of the time, it was me, chin, ivan staying at one corner, doing our work while albert and junheng were everywhere slogging to do their photography shoot in that small space. On tuesday i decided to do work on my own in the vsc lounge away from everybody and it was pretty much productive. I did a poster with a style i thought i would never been able to produce, everyone walked past and saw i was the only one inside the lounge and asked where was the rest. I woke up on average at 7am and sleep at 12am, never have i had such a good sleeping timing. Wednesday was such printing madness and plus i was still chocked up with tons of work. Yesterday everything finally ended at 5pm plus and i finally ate my lunch then.

Major life, you don't know how thankful i am right now. I am feeling the burn in my heart, the anxiety of not finishing work a day before submission, i am so glad to feel all these again. Plus, what i am doing now, i am super happy and willingly to do. Maybe i should lessen my time in other commitment and spend more time honing my skills.

Submission is never over (over)!

YEAR 2

2011-11-16T02:09:00.002+08:00

Year 2 no life. Year 2.2 no more life. I am so worried about not being able to complete my work that i'm forsaking my sleep is king motto but i am so happy doing the work right now. Body maintain abit, need to last till thursday.

Update: I'm getting spinal ache from menses not cramps and it is worst considering how i am spending 24hours a day infront of my laptop. Salompas is filling every inch of my back. Hope it works. Night

Cannot keep track of dates anymore

2011-11-13T16:50:00.000+08:00

Tuesday working with onglais until in the wee hours in VSC Lounge! One year changed us a lot hor onglais? This scene is so heartwarming to see ai shi ni men le! One year ago, we were prolly nuaing on chin's bed or eating food at Manpuku. Heh.

Forever Marinara. This is an obsession in replace of my Ocean Baked Pasta long gone from the menu.

Thursday concert, meeting up with my old friends, i miss having a real cca and i miss singing in choir and i am so glad that our exco team in 2007 did the reformat and the choir now is so successful. :')

Flowers outside my house. Jasmine smells so good even if i am standing from a far. The red roses bloomed first and this is a real small rose with thorns. Beware picking because your fingers are gonna get pierced. Can't wait for the white and yellow roses to bloom.

What if a plane kept flying nearer?

2011-11-12T22:06:00.001+08:00

Used to not like her old album but it rained the whole day and my health isn't in the tip-top shape these days as it used to be. So, i kinda like creepy eery sounding music. Another one was The Decemberists' The Bagman's Gambit.

Makes no sense.

After everything, i still think having a good health is the most important thing anyone could ever ask. Without it, we can hardly do anything right?

2011-11-12T02:03:00.000+08:00

The person is made of smoke and all i see was hallucination

Carved in stone... somewhere?

2011-11-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

Do you believe in Life and Death being predestined?

I was watching the news about the Thailand flooding after coming back from BNChoir (still waiting for pictures from CH). The devastation of the situation for both the citizens and also the economy then comparing to the almost-safe-haven-Singapore.

Okay my point was.. while watching the news, i was thinking (following is my super self opinion so don't be offended by anyway), if Life and Death are being predestined, what if human were smart enough to evade and find some way to bypass and cheat death?

You see arh, human are so clever, we created technology that prolonged our lifespan right? Without those, we would have prolly died at age of the norm 40 or maybe 60. Now, you have 90 or 100 or 120 years old people roaming about.

We cheated death.

Flipping back your textbook, remember WW2? I think the world, or each country has a quota of Life and Death they have to fulfill each year. It is called WORLD's WAR because more than 1 country were involved in it. When human gets smarter, they managed to find ways to cheat death. That meant there was a lack of Death quota right? War claimed a lot of people's life thus fulfilling these quotas.

My ultimate point is... remember Thailand being the only country in SEA then during WW2 to have evaded the war? Of course it was mutual agreement by both country but because Thailand managed to evade the war, it chocked up an amount of quota needed or rather.. predestined.

That's why i think maybe why this flood in Thailand was so bad. Claiming life and property. It is sort of like repaying the debt owed. OF COURSE i mean this is my own stream of thoughts but then the Earth only has the capacity to hold that much amount of living and especially, non living things. 7billion human right now, can it be said that the extremely frequent amount of Natural Disaster is merely a way to lessen the amount of people and things in Earth?

But still, #prayforthailand #prayforhumanity.

Tapestry of Songs: BNSS Choir Concert

2011-11-10T23:59:00.027+08:00

Met CH for dinner at pastamania and grabbed Starbuck's Signature Hot Chocolate (Oh damn it's sooo good) then we met up with Iffah before making it to Lee Foundation Theatre at 7pm.

Half of us, the pioneering batch exco were there :') So happy that they are finally getting their own concert and probably will be going overseas next year or something soon! :'''')

(Picture credits to Tzehui)

I still like my choir time's entire blue costume. The current grey and electric blue are forever piercing my eyes. Oh well~~ At least our choir's costume are not like the other school's LOL dress. ^^

They sang As Torrents in Summer, Three Blind Mice, LonDali Bridge, Oh Soldier Soldier, Princess Mononoke Theme Song (!), Shinjiru, Take These Wings (With Bedok West Primary Choir).

Then it was interval and we went back stage. Like a boss sia we old seniors, walking around the entire theatre like we owned it. Hhaha

Another round of performances then Encore and encore and encore. It would have been so nice to be them for once, to perform on stage with Sukh, Bel, Iffah, CH and all of them juniors again~

O Y MY SHIRT SO CRUMPLED! :((((

Went to bugis and lepak for awhile before everyone broke off to meet their boyfriend arh, girlfriend arh... so the remaining foreveralone us, went home.

Good day!

So proud of them and their achievement. I kinda miss BNSS time and Choir time, i miss wearing BNSS uniform (i passed all my uniform to my cousin already sian) I should have left a set for myself right? :'( BNSS i miss you sooooooo much... Secondary school life my oh my.

Water droplet's bass

2011-11-10T16:34:00.000+08:00

Going off soon to meet CH and probably Iffah for BNChoir concert in the night. So good arh, i remember those time when we were fighting like mad to get concert of our own. Finally they got it, like 4 years later!

But it is raining now, so irritating... hope it better stops when i'm going out.. My umbrella got a hole. :(

These days i have been spending way too much time in design school. Like i go there to do nothing. Yesterday i came back at 10pm plus after hanging out in Photog studio trying to finish the CDI project's proposal.

The day before i went home late again and i already forgotten what i stayed for? Eh oh ya, the day i ate a lot.

I must control my appetite sia. Kept eating for the sake of eating sia.

Anyway, choir concert, is it an etiquette to buy flower for the performances? I don't know leh. That's what the band senior did i think.. Nah, maybe not. Flower die. That is a very sad thing to give away to performer hor?

My few 'koh'mmandments

2011-11-09T00:03:00.001+08:00

He is part of Movement Family (Korean Underground Hiphop awareness group) and i am super duper blown away by his album. I never heard any of his songs before, even the once in MF because he didn't record many as part there but then again he is really genius man.

Watching through his commentary film about how he came about with his first solo album which is so darn good in quality in music-wise. I am really impressed. Some of the songs and how he is thinking is kinda like almost the frequency of what i felt. Of course it is not the same but somewhere where the aches hurts seems to be the same.

So, i was thinking, all along i wanted to express the void i felt in me through painting (which i couldn't), drawing (which i couldn't) or even song writing (which i couldn't) so most of the time i'm blogging. But after watching this, i wanted to make something rhyme. Something about me, since every good lyrics always start from oneself, no? Heh.

Then slowly, i came up with the 3不s of my life.

1. 不偷 (bu4 tou1)
2. 不抽 (bu4 chou1)
3. 不酒 (bu4 jiu3)

then just now bathing, i thought of the 4th 不!

4. 不赌 (bu4 du3)

And the 5th wasn't confirm but the idea is more or less agreed on.

5. 不舞 (bu4 wu3)

It kinda meant, 1. No Stealing 2. No Smoking 3. No Alcoholic Drinking 4. No Gambling 5. No Clubbing.

I am not trying to act purist but these 5 never made sense to me or they simply contradict with my own personal set of morals which i chose to forcefully impose and adopt to it. Some can say it is a cage but i think this is a cage with a gate. I do think that probably this 5 'koh'mmandments will change when i step into the working society, for my job sake like social drinking and stuff, this might change.

But i'm saying.

For now...

Sincerely 18 Years Old Me.

Eyes eyes baby

2011-11-08T02:09:00.000+08:00

Been watching The Lord of the Rings Trilogy the past night. Funny thing was, i had them a nong nong time ago until a few days ago, i decided to watch it and DAMN IT'S GOOD! 2 years, 3 films and with $94M budget they produce such masterpiece of a masterpiece? Brillant lor those people!

Hmm what else did i watched? Nope, just LOTR because each film is about 3 hours each and i have to add about another 1 hour or 2 for my wikipedia-ing and googling of their elvish or dwarlfish terms which i am absolutely ?? about.

I think J.R.R. Tolkien (Creator of LOTR) is really genius. I think the best part of him yet, must go to the fact that he created an entire new language of the elves? I wonder if there are real elves, are they laughing or shock that he actually knew them? Maybe he is an elf too!

While watching these inspiring fantasy films, i fantasized which type of species of creature i would be if i could choose from the film. The first instinct was definitely the Wizard but in the movie they are pretty useless except the fact that they are wise. Oh ya, i am so glad that this series made all species equal in war, like they all used weapons to fight and not spells or like elfish magic or whatever..

Then i wanted to be an Ents which was a species of talking trees that are rangers or trees protector of their forest. Sounds good to me! Then i'll know "Every rock and tree and creature, has a life, has a spirit, has a name".... hahahahlol.

Anyway, right now i am watching lightning dance across the sky outside my window. Some yellow lightning some were white. Nature is so spectacular. More than this lifeless aluminium A.I can show, or this small Singapore can contain.

How i wish i can go some cloud spotting again. I think lightning spotting is kinda like death wish. What if you suay suay kanna hit by lightning leh? I think the worst cloud could give is water on your entire body.

Where was i...

2011-11-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

Meat ball tuesday! Verdict is that Ikea's food are great but i overate and felt really sick.

Stayed at home until Friday!

Lynette had class outside the classroom and she suddenly felt so approachable to me in this module. Maybe she really hated DB33. Oh well, like which VSC lecturer didn't. Anyway, yesterday was the first consultation that went really well with her. Probably the first time she liked my work for the past 3 modules i had with her. :')

Also, coming back to school after having 2 days at home made me realised a lot of things.
1. Cooking makes me happy and especially whatever i cooked turns out so good it makes me even more happy! ~.^
2. Staying at home for too long is kinda detrimental to my mental health.
3. It only make sense to be a housewife if you have kids at home because doing house work all day long without another human being in the house is utterly boring.

I woke up on friday and i knew i want to stay back and watch the photog major shoot. So i stayed back!

Until 10pm when we finally ate our delivery PASTAMANIAAAAA MARINARA!

Me Chin Jen volunteered to stayed until 12am to be studio assistant. These little experiences are those that i want to take part in and have a memory of it. I like the feeling and the idea of staying behind and helping my friends in their work. So nice... Fuzzy feeling.

We had helium party too with Junheng's $15 ballons! Congrats to chin to finally have the helium experience ahahahaha!

Reached home at 1am, lobang JH's taxi with the rest of them.

Today is saturday and the minute i woke up, i cooked meesua for bro's chinese birthday and it was done deliciously in 15minutes! DANG MY FUTURE CHILDREN ARE BLESSED WITH A GOOD COOK MOTHER!

Musicbug

2011-11-04T01:50:00.001+08:00

Mandopop. There is something about them, their songs and their mvs. Although 99 out of 100 are mostly about love song and the mv are always this couple and in the end, either the guy leave or the girl die from some cancer.

But for some reason the MVs are always nicely done. The lighting of taiwan always seems so nice. I remembered i watched about an interview with a Singaporean Director/Cinematographer, he said he enjoyed filming in Singapore's "Unique Lighting". LOL. How unique is that unique? Maybe it is because almost all square metres of singapore's land are high rise flats, we never get a dose of proper Singapore Light. There will always be this weird feeling that the lighting if off whenever i shoot in Singapore.

Anywayyyyy Mediacorp's recently 7pm and 9pm show are sooo good. Are they finally realising that they will tend to get high quality of shows if only they are willingly to fork out the money for that?

9pm's show featured the song above.

Ahhh mandopop. My roots arh my roots.

Void

2011-11-03T01:31:00.001+08:00

Doing my work and doing and doing and doing halfway, i drew a icon that i really liked and i digitised it. It didn't have the feel of what the paper and ink gave but the pixels were more or less there. 5 icons of various stroke width and adjustment laters, i stopped. My heart dropped when i envision the next time when i'm back consultation and she reject it. I didn't continue my work since. It is not that i am afraid of her rejection of my ideas but i am afraid of the rejection of something i like. I realised that the older i grow, the more timid i get. The other reason why i stopped doing my assignment, there is this continuous void of empty feeling i kept getting whenever i'm doing work on my laptop. So i stopped. Watch some movie in hoping it will better myself to continue doing. But these months, i never did. Am i really someone who do things spontaneously based on mood? Or is this, what i am doing actually are the things i am wanting to do. I chose design to forgo the static rigid life of other form of education and here i am in design, trapped in the circle i desperately wants to run out. Graphic design major... i know it interest me but the things i am doing now doesn't especially the fact that i am on the computer producing pixels. This satisfaction is neither tangible or even something i can reach out to and grab. The longer i dwell on this topic of "I know this feeling that i am meant for something greater out there, something i can do all day and not feel tired mentality and physically" the more i cannot stand myself doing this kind of work i am doing now. I know more or less the type of things i want to do, something tangible and something i can reach out to and do it myself, with both of my hands. Probably the design or artistic expression i am chasing is something of form and something far away from computer. I want to do clay, i want to paint, i want stay all day long in a letterpress factory, i want to carve something, i want to garden, i want the least to be deal with something that is computerised. I am not a technopobe but i just feel that the route my inner (art/design expression) self wants to be with is not with that. The longer i type this post, the more calm i am, the lesser the void is suppressing me. I kept dosing myself with buddhist films and listening to Om Mani Padme Hum. I know it is already wrong to be using these as a filler to the emotion but the void is so unbearable.

Right now thinking, i think the reason why in design school, i see so many people and my friends eventually turning their emotion outlet to smoking or drinking. In design, at least in my opinion, we often exploit too much of ourselves that we never knew or could ever understand under the rigorous thought process of trying to fix our client's problem that we had no other way to unleash these trapped emotions so they turned to smoking and drinking. I too have a bunch of exploited feelings from the training of continuous digging of ways to solve a problem but my outlet was never smoking or drinking because those 2 never made logic to me before. Everything is impermanent. Smoking doesn't smoke out the emotion you are feeling, they were merely poisons that numbs the feeling for a moment. That feeling will eventually come back and soon this will be a never ending cycle. Drinking doesn't ease the emotion you too are feeling, they merely make you forget about the emotion temporarily. Once you are sober, those problems will eventually come back to you again and the cycle repeats.

I am seeking a way that is impermanent but at least it does clear the emotion and untangles them, since the emotions are root out by our own mind and thoughts. Tonight, i think i am going to try meditating. I don't know how am i supposed to do or what i should be thinking when i meditate but i will try and let my mind wander and untangle the knots that are forming on its own. So many questions i wanna ask and share but i know the answers will never be the ones that will clear my own very knots so i think it will be better for myself to find that answers to all the queries of my own life by myself. “We don’t meditate to see heaven, but to end suffering.” ~Ajahn Chah I don't think i am at the position of meditating for the better good of other people because i first need to salvage myself before i got the right to salvage the rest. No?

欢迎!

2011-11-01T00:11:00.000+08:00

Died laughing at this after doing up the Welcome back banner for pama and papa's birthday!

Left at 9pm plus to airport.
AND YESSAH FEAST AT POPEYES AT 10PM PLUS!

Oh gawddddd how long since i've ate so late?? But it's meat! MEAT MEAT MEATTTTTTTT! Look at all my holiday fats not going away. Meat > Rice. I psycho-ed bro with this slogan. Nyehhehee.

Pa suddenly called at 10.40pm and said they reached and landed liao. We thought it was 11.40pm so we stuffed down all the delicious, fatty juicy chicken down and rushed to the arrival hall.

NI MEN HAO WO DE AI REN MEN!

AWW SO MUCH LURVE!

Pama go taiwan lose weight back sia, then see the daughter in Singapore so happily eating and gaining fats and losing the will to say no to food even though im not hungry. Haiyer.

The only thing good about taiwan according to pama for me will probably be the SGD$1.50 KOI everywhere in Taiwan. WTF ARH IN SINGAPORE SO EXPENSIVE EAT MY MOOLAH! But i still love you Green Tea Macchiato. You priceless thing.

Untitled 1737

2011-10-30T01:49:00.001+08:00

I finally have homework! And... it made me realised how my skills dropped so much after not touching it for 1-2months and kinda feel that my skills are still not apt for the outside world. Haiyer.

Thursday

I was once again, at VSC lounge after class before joining the VSC photog major's junior and senior sharing session! It is so fun to listen to the Photog major senior talk about their SIP experiences! I was actually having an urge to organise a Graphic Design Major sharing session but like... i'm not close to GD major seniors and 50 seniors + 60 juniors, go where share sia?

Maybe i'll organise next year at lounge or something. Heh heh heh.

#VSCpride

Friday
Met our client from Singapore Disabilities Sports Council and yep homework! After class, onglais and cgang met at Photo Studio. Lillie's not teaching art fundamentals anymore! :( But anyway, me and Jen went to visit our 1m x 1m painting.

Yessi, i purposely left a huge blank space in my room for this to come back home before CNY. Baobei take care till i bring you home. ;}

Onglais waiting for Albert and Junheng's consultation to end!

Albert left for work and jen went home so the remaining of us went to Ion's Ginza Bairin.

Remember that time when i got the wrong order and i was angry? This time, i ordered the ramen and it taste like shit. Everything felt so uncooked and weird like the pork is human meat or smthg. :(

Super bad experience up till now. :(

Sian this place don't like me.

Onglais Backpack Club bought another matching set of bags again! WOO~ This time instead of haji lane, we bought our canvas bag at Muji! :D Bag is neverending loveeeeeeeee!

I went home alone and during my 22 minutes wait for 65, i kinda memorised half of orchard road's map so im not a town-dont-knower now! Heh! On the bus home, i was so pissed off by dumb tourists who stood on the double decker bus's top tier.

Seriously hor. Should produce a "Idiot proof guide to Singapore for stupid and ignorant tourists". I really hate it when people trample on the morals i've been brought up to believe and laws that i've grown up abiding to.

As of now, i kinda regret not buying the cheapass $5 easel and i really want to make a new specs or just get me lasik soon. But i still prefer specs since i'm still young and not crazy and desperate about shooting electric out of my eyes yet.

Friends are a set of frequency

2011-10-27T18:31:00.001+08:00

Major class is in the 3rd day today. Nothing much happened except that we have been hanging out in the newly cleaned and arranged VSC lounge everyday after class. Yessi, done proudly by Onglais and Cgang #VSCpride.

I have been having a lot a lot of question marks and questions about a lot of things after the visit to 师公's temple last Sunday.

*

Changing classes these days and then listening to each one of us sharing about their new class and new people. It really is hard to mix with people especially if you got into a class with your own clique or it is very hard for you to know some other new people because they are too, trapped in their own comfortable clique.

But didn't we all started off not knowing anyone before becoming a group of friends?

Is it because everyone of us has a set of frequency and we eventually clique with people who are of the same frequency or somewhere near your frequency range. But what exactly is the probability will you meet the people that have the same frequency with you? Rare right?

You will never know if you never try isn't it? Maybe that is why some people are friends then they realised they just are not. Maybe they know, they consciously know that they are just incompatible to be close friends that's why eventually they are not anymore.

But some do try to bridge that frequency range. For example, you may range from a 1-3 then another person who wants to be your friend has a 5-7 range. The probability of being friends are quite minimal right? There would have been nothing to say and the air would just awkwardness.. Thing is, sometimes if both are willingly and really wants to be friend or just 命中注定 that you guys will be friends somehow, someone has to make the first move. This kind of fate thingy is just a guideline, I think that if anyone just want fate to miraculously happen, it will not. Most of the time it works because we made it happen so.

So if just everyone takes the first step to cross over and from a frequency range of 1-3, you extend yourself and embrace to 1-4, whereas the other person extend he/her's range from 5-7 to a 4-7, everyone can be friend. Because right now, you guys have a similarity in 4.

Don't you sometimes find yourself changing due to a group of friend you hang out with? You suddenly start listening to songs you have no idea they exist before? You suddenly say things you have never thought you will say? Doing something that you have nothing done before may sometime be for the good or sometimes just bad for the righteous morals. That is why some people turn bad or some people turn good and proper because of the people they've met.

I think in the end it just boils down on how much you want to be influenced in a group of friends. My main point is that, frequency changes. We can deny it all we want but eventually this frequency range will widen. That is why you can only have more friends as you grow older, not the vice versa, whether you want to believe it or not. Hi-bye friends, are still friends right? Just that you say hi and bye to them only. Close friends are friends right? Just that they know a whole lot more about you than the usual acquaintances or pure strangers.

Maybe it is time for everyone to give others a chance. Your own frequency range are constantly expanding. Definitely you will have a bunch of very close friends that are spot on with the same frequency but haven't you thought of that maybe is because you both gave each other a chance to eventually get to the exact same range? Why not the rest too, someday?

Restarting footsteps

2011-10-25T00:32:00.002+08:00

8.30am and i was already in school sitting. 哦my眼睛下面的包包! Duty was Twin's school but apparently no one knew him. HAHahhaaLOL.

Class started and my new class was... hmmm... I never had such a quiet class ever since graduating from my secondary school. Met a few new people and my class really has so few people, the spaciousness kinda scares me. But I like how conducive my class is right now and the lecturer seems so happy to be teaching (as compared when they taught DB33 and like we were taking their life away like that).

I think right now all my focus for my next 1 and a half year is to learn as much stuff as possible. Today's class of infodesign is exactly the stuff i want to learn and wants to ABSORB ABSORB AND ABSORB into my bloodstream. So putting aside that my class has all the high achievers; I want to really work so hard i'll bleed and cry and lie down and look at my ceiling smiling at the end of the day feeling the day's worth of battle and perseverance are all worth it.

I just want to enjoy my last 3 sem, learn as much things as possible, enjoy as much class experiences and school experiences before i graduate.

Everything is so clear right now.

Heh. :}

This is VSC pride. We do hope these little changes can help the year 3s who are back to do their FYP to feel a little more inspired? Maybe when we are year 3, the year 1/2 might do these for us?

Lunch at Coco Curry with Onglais and Cgang. I am kinda loving the synergy created from the splitting of class. Having a class that motivates me on one hand and having a bunch of good friends who understands me on the other hand.

I got the best of both worlds right now in Major class!

PMG

2011-10-24T01:25:00.000+08:00

Pama at Taiwan right now! How i wish school could have started 1 week later so i can be with them.

Woke up this afternoon doing housework chores. In my mind, while plugging into my earpiece, i am thinking... One day if i am overseas studying, this might be the scenario. Doing all the housework alone while all my close people are far far away. But then.. this is just a might scene.

School gonna start tomorrow. New class and the start of Major class... I still have the 8.30am duty tmr and tuesday. Omg, bless my liver.

A Bunch of Design Favourites

2011-10-21T23:45:00.047+08:00

Last day of duty for this week... Everytime i listen to Pat (Not Pattan) introducing our school to the kids for are listening to the first time, it somehow always refreshes my mind and says "Hey, remember those time when you wanted to get it".

Some how it always will give me motivation although i might have listened to the same slide and talk for the past 1 years. Like a mother beside a son, canning him to study. This slide is like slapping me from delusional self-inflicted depression about the loss of passion. Never really gone.

"Design is to design a design to product a design."

Duty on friday was so good because Loelle was assigned to do the photo studio station with me! So while we were waiting for the next group of students to come in we were taking picture!

So nice to hear her call me her bff AWW :'}. Seriously and honestly hor i think DOC would have been real dread if she wasn't in my empire. Leos foreva lurb lurbbbb! HAHA!

After duty, i chionged home and bathed and...

1pm
2pm
3pm
4pm
5pm
Nap.

Duty these days has been starting at 8.30am. Next mon and tues will be the same ohmyduckgoose.

Washed up again (haha) and went down to Pasir Ris Park.

I kinda got lost in PasirRis after i alighted at the wrong stop but all was well! I came by this chalet arena too many times to get lost. So shameful lah, i am east-sider leh wah piang.

It is kinda surreal to be walking along dense trees on my way to the bbq pit. The darkness shrouding the trees and the bat that were flying against the salty air. So so surreal.

Another group of photo with my favourite people in design!

FOOD WAS AMAZING~~~ I got down to cook and the land breeze was nice enough to blow the hideous bbq smoke away from me.

We talked and ate and talked until 2.30am. I couldn't stayed with them to the next morning since i had to go ShiGong temple in the morning. But staying up so late talking with them before we break up and split to our major classes and meeting up the next time might be difficult because of class timing. This night was precious.

Everyone in this post are precious to me. So so precious...

Kwalah Bear

2011-10-20T23:00:00.028+08:00

Thankfully duty started in the late afternoon. Apparently Keegan, my History of Design (?) lecturer is retiring and they went to hire a group of lion dancers and had a spread of buffet too. HAHA. So him man.

After duty, went down to Tampines to meet Kwalahs with Esther! Don and Khoi joined us too!

At simpang bedok, it is really really scary to see how another stall tryna get customer the forceful way. We went to the seemingly kind and nice uncle at Enak HongKong Tea House and i'm the mayor (Foursquare) there HAHAHAHAH.

Credit: Kayan (top)

I ordered 1 dimsum tray of 3 hargaow. LOL

Edel, Jonah and Curly later joined us!

HAhaha went to the exact same playground before all the year 1s came in. Ahh memories. The constant meet up at simpang bedok with the other GLs. I really cannot wait for the next DOC to come, it is like an addiction! :}

Left early and took bus back with Kayan! It was nice talking to her ~

Bathed and immediately had meeting with Justin and Ivan for our project.

And we ended talking after our work was done! They are actually nice to talk to too!

Fire Burning Soles

2011-10-20T14:24:00.001+08:00

Got back my films. I really regretted washing it at fotohub since i was lazy to go all the way to Serangoon to wash and print. Okay, shall go the extra mile for good and better stuff!

Anyway Vista is really good with sunny day shot!

Went back to sch yesterday at 9.30am for the CDI project! GUESS WHAT!? Our client like Me, Ivan and Justin's idea and they gonna adopt it for the display during the christmas season at Ngee Ann City! OMGGGGGGGGG!!!!! :D :') :'D

Researching for more stuff and kinda found an artist i quite like!

Lunch and continued to have meeting and development processes till 4pm plus when i went to Tampines to meet bro!

Finally bought KOI Green Tea Macchiato too! Yessah~

Bro bought many clothes and bought me 3 tops too! Nyehehehhe~ We went walking from T1, to TM to Century back and forth and back and forth. Woah.

I changed my screen protector once again at the shophouses opposite TM then it was the same problem when i first gotten my Samsung Jet 3 years ago... The Matte protector got this weird oil speckle looking dots over my pristine samsung screen. WTH. So angry! :{

But the bumper i bought is chiokalaosai! ^^

Went back to Century and finally found a "professional" shop that does the handphone protector, so now i have a clear screen protector and it is mildly finger print proof. 3rd time's a charm right? Same case as was with Jet.

We went to Popeyes to eat! We both were like "Sian why HuiYi/Jie not here".. :(

Official time table is out and i am in the same class as Ivan, Serena and Cloud from DB33. 4 of us in this new class.

The plus point is that i only got 2 morning classes Ahh bless my soul thank buddha. And i kinda heard that my class got a lot damn good ones. O.O Time to work hard Koh Min Yu! Last leg before going into the real world and work till my ass drop.

Damn i miss Onglais

/off to duty in school now and kwalah dinner later

Guess who's back, back again?

2011-10-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

GOR IS BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! YAY! :D

We waited for 2 hours okay. Never take picture of my face only. Jitao 20x more sian okay.

Today's school tour was REALLY tiring. Maybe i slept too late because of the major class thingy or maybe i woke up early *yawn* or maybe it is just that these 15 years old adrenaline rush kids are too much for a 18 years old me to handle. Exhausting my energy at the rate of 1 packet of milo per second.

Tmr i'm going back for duty and also CDI project. Urgh 7 hours of meeting leh... i wonder what are we doing.

2011-10-18T14:01:00.001+08:00

At first i was like angry,
then i was sad,
then i was like feeling 可惜
then i was feeling sad,
then i was angry,
then my i cannot 心静自然凉,
so my thick blanket was so hot i was angry,
then i decided to think about the positive,
then i decided to embrace it,
so my i 心静自然凉,
my thick blanket was cooler,
and i fell asleep.

I should not set up walls.

To think right, i never actually got divided into class with my close friends before. Take YOG with Tehpeng for instance, or maybe the Global Entrepolis event too, i was splited alone. But often time, when i was sent alone to this places, i do meet great people who later become my friends.

I do hope this new class will have classmates that will inspire me and force me to the brink of extreme i will know a whole new me i didn't know i can achieve before.

But of course i am still feeling really very sian.

This is just a momentary feeling.

It will soon too, past.

2011-10-18T02:47:00.003+08:00

Damn shit... this means i have to make friends all over again in my new major class.
This is so dumbshit

Good stuff roll in bulks

2011-10-17T00:54:00.001+08:00

I finally changed my phone to Samsung Galaxy S2! I apparently spent my entire Sunday trying to act geek and tried to "customized" my phone which was Android's specialty. But i no balls to root it (something like jailbreak) or even have the patience to slowly customized everything one by one.

Wah kao i really can't be bothered with all this till a point i really wanted those old old phone with just buttons and you can play black and white snake... nah, just kidding.

I think i'm suffering from handphone cultural shock lah.

My phone is the SAME size as my entire palm, even bigger. HOLA PUNY FINGERS! And i didn't expect this huge screen handphone to be THIS light.

Singtel personnel: "Here, please take a look and check if your handphone got any scratches".
-Hand over-
Me: "O.O You sure this is the real one, not fake arh? Not those demo plastic sets arh?"

LOL yea i know right, sound so dumb but the gasp was real!

I need to err... talk to some real Android phone user to fully understand this customizing thing. Meanwhile, my phone shall just stay like this lor. What to do. So high tech sia. I should go get pigeons and rear them. Oh my radiation-filled soul!

Anyway....

Kinda O.O at Tablo joining YG to produce this album. He is part of Movement Family ya'know but i mean i love YG and all but... aiya good thing his tracks are of high standard. Nothing to expect less from a Movement Family and a YG album.

Good song.

Next week will be duty every.single.day. And Bro is flying back on Tuesday FUCKYEAH! But PaMa are flying off on Sunday. DAMNNNNNN. Don't know :)/:(

p/s: Been watching Kimi Ni Todoke too. Some of the scenarios make my heart literally tore sia but i was immediately awaken sane after realising that the way the lead talks is like chuasai. I feel so sympathetic towards chuasai after this show's insight but URH okay no, she still give me goosebumps to my spine.

Khan You Buy Sum Paper?

2011-10-15T02:46:00.000+08:00

Met Chin at Bras Basar MRT and was figuring out how to get to NSM. We stopped over at Coffee Bean to get double chocolate! She is the first person i knew who preferred TCB over Starbucks and we also love double chocolate! :D

We had all the time in the world to reach there so we sip our Double Chocolate which was made by my junior working there!

We had touristsy shots before we chionged into NSM for the shelter and the air con to continue sipping our DC!

HAHAHAHAHAH We were saying about how our face looks so flawless in the picture. HAHAHLOL~~~ Talking about opportunities and stuff. About life and everything, you know like whenever onglais get together no matter how many people, we dive deep, talk deep, think deep? Ohm. LOL

The talk was awesome because for the first half of his talk, his words somehow kept triggering things for me to think deeply about so my mind wasn't there but i remembered what his visuals were. Then the second half of his talk was like Pann's, inspiration! The whole time, i was concentrating to figure out his accent. Yea, i should try to get use huh. *.*

So yep! Do visit the installation outside the NSM soon! Check out NSM's website for more detail!

The talk ended pretty early so me and chin went to hunt down fancy paper and we bought papers! I'm kinda happy for the fact that i bought a bunch of my wanted papers and it only costed me like $3 plus! :}

We walked back and splited, chin went movie and i went home.

Otwh, mama called to told me to go up ah ma's house to eat!

Went in immediately i received a used rubber stamp (those time kind) but still it was stamp OMG DYING OF HAPPINESS! Chin you know righttttttttttttt? :D So happy!

Favourite pic of me and ah ma EVERRRR!

With mama acting cute. HAHAH SEE AH MA SO NATURAL CUTE! Okay lah mama also very cute. :}

Such a happy day! Happy people, happy day!

I wanna go cloudspotting again. After coming to poly, i have no had the time to go cloudspot. Happy hobby happy me!

1 Year's Due of Kite

2011-10-13T23:58:00.046+08:00

Finally a kite flying time with tehpeng and a "mini" picnic that we have been talking about for the past 20 months.

Lunch at Just Acia, the same place with the same waiter when we were there after our YOG training with YOGPeng! Oh the time we had during YOG~~~~

Walked from Cityhall ALLLLLLLLLLL the way to Marina Barrage. O' MY KA!

Almost a year since we had met up in 10/23 HAHAH IT IS A FEAT!

Yaw dude, not the octopus thou i wish! Likah flying tako in the sky. Would have made such a nice takoyaki at 4pm plus. Yum yum!

Nice exercise for a lazy swivel chair me, i kept looking up to the kite i have neck aches now.

Nice people wo de ai ren men!

Nice place.

Sat at the same spot with KWAME during our go out-bonding session for DOC. Ahhhh another memory~~~

We left at 7.30pm just in time for the shuttle bus to pick up back to Marina Barrage.

Dinner at Aston's! Had a mini cake slice for Darren and WenYao they so gan dong, like i know right! ^^

At the dinner, it was kinda split into the girls while the guys sat at the other table since Aston's couldn't fit us 12 together. But Weilun was sitting with us because apparently with susian, he is a matured and grown MAN as compared to al the other tehpeng xiao didi. HAHAHAH AGREE!

Our topic very chen shou.

Anyway i've decided to get Samsung Galaxy S2 instead of iPhone 4S since i wanted (iPhone5 TBH).
1. I have been using Samsung for like 7 years already?
2. I think i can safely be butter fingers and if ever i dropped my phone from a height of approx 3 stories, my bet is Samsung would probably still be alive and kicking.
3. I need the vibration feedback leh if not the insecurity of like tapping on air is so gaowei.

I think the only minus about this android thing is that i am too used to iphone apps since onglais all used iphones and i used them often too. Time to be Androidy...? -.- ya.

Lai, last photo of thursday shall be a very artsy shot of MUAH. ^.~

So glad that this entire day's worth of album are all badly lit with the wrong white balance so i can practice my photography manipulation skills. Yessi, esqi mi this is not filter tank yew. I painstakingly adjust each color to fit the feel.

Can you feeeeeeeel it?

p/s: Changed my facebook name back to Koh TehPeng Min Yu. :} 我不会忘记你们的，也不会不爱你们，这就是我实际的行动! Awwwww likah touchy touchy :')

Hello, Long time no hear

2011-10-13T01:05:00.002+08:00

Spending my last week of holiday watching Naruto (without bro) :( Started watching it because i've already outplayed Sims and it is boring the crap out of me waiting for my Sims to wake up or take Sims 1 hour plus to travel down his apartment..

Wth right? Ikr...!

Anyway, i don't get it why everybody thinks i only and ONLY listen to kpop? I have not played a single kpop song for the past 1-2months and my playlist are only playing Fleet Foxes and The Decemberists *.* They are like my soul healer idk, they're like the angmoh buddhist chants to me. HAHA.

(FYI) The shows i'm currently catching are ANTM, PRW, NS and also catching up with 2NE1tv. THEN.... today i was watching their unannounced 2NE1tv's last episode of season3 mygawd. The only kpop group i admire and bothered about, ended their most prominent show. :(

I was searching for some new updates on whether it was a prank about it, if was the last episode since they have pranked us in previous seasons too. Guess what i've found while searching updates!

I know this is not 2NE1...

SHIT THE TUNE IS SO FAMILIAR!!!

I kinda ~~like~~ love this song because the tune is awfully familiar. I think i have been listening to songs that are too peaceful and this song is actually making me have adrenaline rush sia! HAHAHAHAHAWTF?! Is this a sign i'm from that kind of era? LOL. But it is so nice to hear something fresh from the stale kpop dont chu think so? And the subtle satire of the Chinese theme is funny.

Going out with tehpeng tmr~

DAYUM CANT GET THE TUNE OUTTA MY HEAD!

老妹之 Y I NO THIS, Y I NO THAT

2011-10-10T23:58:00.002+08:00

Y I NO BEER?
I do drink alcoholic drink but the only one i probably drink is wine although i rarely drink it nowadays. Maybe because the fact that i don't like how beer is like useless water or fermented wheat and the side effects are not pleasurable at all so i don't drink it at all. I know another reason for it to be negatively appealing to me but i'm not gonna share it.

Y I NO CONTACT LENS?
I thought of it before leh. FYI, i have been wearing my spectacles since Kindergarden 1(which is 13 years now....lol) although i can almost perfectly see the world without my specs. But the fact that i like researching about something because i actually buy/use them, made me found horrible health facts about them. Even if i bought the "healthy" and safe ones, my ma would rather i save up and go Lasik. Makes sense to me and $$ efficient.

Y I NO CLUB?
I hate messy events or events that will make me feel sticky as though i've not bathed for example, going to the beach.. unless i planned it. LOLOL. Anyway, the club scene i've seen thus far, from SG's club to NB in SK are very squeezy... and very lame considering how i don't use dance to express my bodily and spiritually emotions. TROLLOL

Y I NO COCACOLA?
I remembered once i saw a video about coca cola and they found this black blob of unknown rat shit plus some faggot unearthly materials in the almost all the can in the cart of CocaCola. Cannot unsee. But the fact that they made me feel more thirstier-than-ever after drinking them kinda bleh me to drink them even though they are the best softdrink in da wold. Ah, another factual fact is since they are gassy drink, they do make me feel very gassy after drinking that. & i, do not like feeling gassy.

Y I NO PART-TIME JOB?
A small pause if i ever had to do up a résume (not really). My ideology is that why should youngster work when they are studying? (Hmm) The job of a student is to study and the fact that we are pretty much going to only study 10-20 years of our life and eventually go out and work till we die, I see no adrenaline rush for myself to go out and do part time job when i will practically work for the next 50-infinity after i've graduated. Of course everybody's situation is different but for my case, i think it should be this way.

Y I NO SKIRT?
To clarify first, i do have 1 dress but she is hung to the very side of my wardrobe, bringing them out only for wedding functions IN THE PAST. Now i WILL comfortably attend a wedding in my button up shirt and chinos and oxford shoes. Other than the sad fact i have very define calves that are super useless (i was doing rope skipping 4 hours ago and even with proper warm up, i nearly tore my calf muscle once again -rolleyes+sadface- ) I think skirt still makes me feel so insecure... But how knows, maybe i might start wearing DRESSES or have SKIRTS when i'm 20 plus and i might look pretty good in them too. #BHBHAHA ^.~

LOL this 自问自答 post kind of #foreveralone arh. I remember talking to Chin about how i am "Open-minded about everything but close-minded about myself". With so much things uncommon with my age group people, i might have to marry myself in the future...

Just so if you have anything Q?? about me you can ask a Y U NO___ at that dying tagboard. Holiday is so boring liao and the pure fact that hardly anyone blogs now makes it even more boring.

Wonder who is alive on 10/10?

My Buddy

2011-10-10T02:45:00.002+08:00

I was at the airport at 8am. Bro is at Philippines right now doing OCP. I am so bored not talking to him especially when i found something interesting to share with him. Usually he will be using computer outside so like his presence is so ensuring. Now it just feels weird.

I really think bro is my BFF considering how i dont have friend bff. Although i don't tell him things like what normal BFFs should do but this guy knows me for 18 years of my life liao leh. I think i am relying too much on bro liao. That's why when bro is going to army/work/get a gf soon, i should go get myself a boyfriend to lessen my reliance on bro.

GOR ARH HAVE FUN HELPING PEOPLE BUILD THEIR SCHOOL! :D

So nice to know i have Gor and Jie. So important bffs tied by blood. Like i mean i'm close to pa and ma but having 知己 around my age who cares for me deeply for the past 18 years is gratifying. :)

And shout out to my soul-mate/husband/father of my child in the future whoever you might be. Where the hell are you?

Oooooo can't wait to type the next post and the topic is on..........

Time to sleep first!

Different Tongue

2011-10-09T00:56:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite hokkien song. She is singing in Min Nan's Hokkien. So it is kinda different from Singaporean's Hokkien but still nice and pretty understandable.

This few days, when i spoke in hokkien/teochew and especially i managed to say 1 sentence super fluently, i got a shock. LOL! But by far, it only happened once and ahma and mama who were on the phone clapped. Hahahahahah! :D

Making pretty good progress with learning Hokkien/Teochew. Maybe they are too similar in Singapore context so i'm like learning a 2-in-1 dialect now. But learning it and eventually able to speak out 60% of a sentence makes me sooooo happy~ :}

Last night, i went through listening to JJ Lin all 8 albums. I bought 5 of his albums and i used to have A0 poster of him in my room before. Ahhhhh genius boy.

Bitch Out!

2011-10-08T13:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a beachy day. I had a rage mode on during my journey to habourfront. Antsy ansty. Anyhow still i didn't really regret going. Except for the rain and the sand flies. Sentosa should rake their sand and distill their water. Mehhhh.

Lor Hor

We went to an island's island's island. :}

Junheng's booty tooch! LOL

HAHHAHAHA WTF IS WRONG WITH TSECAS!!!

Onglai sat around the sheltered while cgang went to play water. So long never see all 5 of you all hao xiang hao xiang ni men! Sentosa was so humid to the point it was hard to breathe.

Went back and had dinner at AOBA at 5pm plus LOL.

The okay-ramen. I really wanna go Japan and eat real ramen for i am a ramen lovaaaaaa. Okay lah, noodle lovaaaaaaaaaa.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HUANNNNNN~~!!

Everyone of them went to buy beer/alcoholic drink, only me, albert, enmian and jaslyn didn't. We were sharing ice-cream hahahahaha. Aiyer their alcoholic breath so "intoxicating" sia.

Played a weird game and kinda awkward so it must be played to a group of quite close friends to very close friends. If not this game will be The Awkward Game.

Home with Alabird and Momo!

Watched running man with bro last night. BRO GOING AWAY FOR 10 DAYS! NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~~~ Who will talk and sing and dance and crap and watch running man with me this 10 days~~~ :( :(

impromptu

2011-10-06T23:31:00.001+08:00

11am plus, my phone's was on silent mode and the vibration on my wooden desk was so loud i had to wake up and answer it.

It was WENYAO! So WY, CH, Fiona, Steph and Darren just finished AWWA and asked if i want to join them for an impromptu KTV session at ChaiChee. I was "Noooooo (half-awake)". Since i am a really light-sleeper, i couldn't go back to sleep so i woke up and called back to say Yes. LOL.

Surprisingly, this KTV is only 10minutes bus ride from my house. Fkyeah~

We didn't really catch up since we were singing. Went home after singing. Anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAOPIGU! :D

So nice to so impromptu meet up with anybody especially tehpeng! It is so hard to see them around in school, let alone outside or even planned outings.

I really miss you guys and lurve you guys. :}

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Anyway i tweeted about how much i want to learn my dialect recently and yes, i am very determined to learn it. The want to learn Hokkien and Teochew is more than the want of learning Japanese/Korean/French/Italian. Seriously, i think it is a big waste and pity for kids of my age to not know our roots.

I must master my dialects soon. Fuck policies about eradicating dialect usage last time. What is achieved in the long time is only the lose of heritage and culture. zzzzzzzzz

p/s: Oh yes, result out just as i went out. Remained the same as last sem but the overall was pulled down. Lika gradual downwards hill ride. I just don't understand how my plait cookie packaging deserves a C+, lowest grade this sem when it is the one that i put the most effort into it. "Design very opinionated one" - Ma. Okay. xxxxxxx you not gonna get any of my meimeiplait liao.

p/p/s: iSad Steve Jobs is in iCloud now. I will cherish my macbookpro more. But seriously... i hope you had envisioned out of the world gizmo for the next 1-5 years at least. If not apple might really...........

"Spend some time alone every day" - Dalai Lama

2011-10-06T01:02:00.001+08:00

But i want to spend this entire week alone.

Next week onwards, my holiday will really start to end. I will be having seminars, projects and duties all the way till school reopen. Initially, I didn't even allocate days to stay at home and do nothing but since the new schedule is up, i am gonna locate this entire week to myself. Not gonna go anywhere.

I am kinda surprise that downloaded Sims work with actual CD Sims. So now, i have World Adventure, Ambition, Barnacle Bays, Late Night plus Medieval. But seriously i play 2 days of Ambition i am bored of it already. And also, True Blood is getting so boring i'm gonna delete it soon.

Anyone alive in design should try to watch Paradise Kiss. It is like a ADM-ish show. Kinda interesting to see design school related anime. Imma gonna keep Bolt and Bee Movie when school reopen. Any recommendation of shows to watch? Hmmm?

David cannot pun

2011-10-04T17:41:00.000+08:00

We had a field trip to visit Scanteak's showroom. So basically we met David and the rest of them in this project at Eunos MRT before going there. Half way there, Ivan asked David how come he got 2 phone then guess what he said?

"1 is for school, 1 is for my love life".

LOL SERIOUSLY ARH.

He was so engrossed in messaging his baby, he missed the bus we were supposed to get on! Hur.

After the showroom David treated us to Katong Laksa!

Then he treated us cab fare! Ivan and Justin kept wanting to pay him back but i'm like Thank You! Hahahahha. Anyway, throughout eating laksa (cause me, ivan and justin sat with david) and also during the cab back to school, David kept trying to use pun but it was sooooo not funny.

LOL.

Saw Jen when we were back in school! I misss youuuuuuuu~~

But the 3 of us had to go to library and research and give an proposal to David at 5.30pm.

Bottomline, this CDI project is quite fun and thanks goodness i'm grouped with Ivan and Justin. I've just sent our proposal to David at 2am plus.

Holiday is shorten so quickly with this project plus another design workshop in the later weeks. I should really spend my remaining holidays well.

76 years

2011-10-02T23:09:00.014+08:00

Ahhh really good food. It was a pre-celebration for Ah Ma!

LOL nice photo with broooooooooooo~

Happy birthday Ah Ma! :D

Mother side minus Ah Gong.

I swear i will never ever book a place in the future with KTV set. Almost irritate me to the bones. But good lah. Good food my belly felt it was going to tear open.

Presenting....

2011-10-02T15:56:00.002+08:00

Thing is... the orange paint kinda feel passé. Especially the strip in the middle, that's acrylic mix enamel HAHAH lazy excuse.

Maybe i should coat an entire new paint soon, next year? :}

The huge empty wall is waiting for my 1x1m painting to fill it.

I bought a very cheapskate version of a paper cutter but i already felt like my life is complete~~ Moreover it is with a perforated option, shiokalaosai!!

I'm going ahma's birthday dinner soon. Like taboo to take pics in black&white but i wanna try leh... time to hear all the mindset oldies symphony soon.

If my night is filled with Casiotone For the Painfully Alone. Then the remaining of my light should be with The Decemberists and Fleet Foxes. Wah really like life completed sia.

???

2011-10-02T04:16:00.000+08:00

This was the video that made me listened to Casiotone for the Painfully Alone. His one-man band name is painfully long but nice although half of them makes me felt so ???? unexplainable kind of feeling.

I am always on the verge to delete away Trueblood and Teenwolf anytime even though i spent like 1-2 weeks just trying to torrent them. And the verge's peaking point is right after their pilot episode. Wah seriously i cannot even last through angmoh drama's first episode....

Holiday is marching into the 2nd week. My room is all done, shiokalaosai thankyewsomuch! :)

After i wake up then post more. Wth can't believed it is 3.44AM already. Nonsense... i didn't even do anything worth time moving.

Ma "你为什么holiday都没有跟你那些primary,secondary朋友meet up de arh? 你们都不meet liao arh? 以前还好到要死then............?"
Me " " (continue to read da newspaper)

I don't think i would have been able to produce my 1x1 without this. Art is really so innate of one person. Scary but true. I have already come to terms about this situation i'm in. Trust me, i have tried to find a lot of excuses of what might have gone wrong or done wrong but i think some people, like me are just born this way. Not in the sense of like physical or whatsoever but i mean like you know 天定-kind of thing? TBH arh, until now i am still a little puzzled, more surprised and a tad of disbelieve how this kind of thing can be a pattern. Like bobian one lah hor. Just happened lor.

Most people who knows me well know i am (really) optimistic that's why most of the time i am like 有缘this 有缘 that. I am already over the period of grieving and being really confused. "走到哪里朋友交到哪里 - Ma" I really couldn't have gotten over that phase without this.

On the taxi home after shopping for groceries, we past by TP.. Suddenly thought of tehpeng. Maybe because of the night time, night view of TP mushroom. I thought of the dinner at MacDonalds. Aiya all the talks about the 23 of us of 10 years 20 years....i hor, i really very 看开. Although my heart is full of 舍不得 and a lot a lot of 可惜. But i think this is just life. I do miss all the time in dpa period with them. The crazy regular meet up. Let's just say plainly that we are not busy, we are just lazy and prolly a bit busier. Wouldn't it be weird if one day, we met up after so long and the table of conversation is awkward with topics only revolving about school and how we are doing. Acknowledging. What if, in the future, this situation might happen. It might happen... or maybe it might not happen?

Same case for onglai. I have never divulge so much about myself to any human being in the world and seriously i am scared. What if this phasely-situation happen to this group of people with me especially we are breaking to our major class liao. Only time will tell right?

I do not dare to call anyone unblood related to me best friend ever again in my entire life. I am jealous of other people with best friend like how can people of 2 different body end up having so much in common. Maybe i have yet to find mine but this best friend thing, to me, is really interesting but the most scary thing. Idk.

Ma "Aiya 那些跟 family like 很close的不会跟朋友很close 的啦"
Me " " (continue to read da newspaper)

p/s: I am so brutally honest in this post. This should end up in my private blog but nah. Maybe i will make this private soon. Or maybe not. Who knows. It is 4.15AM right now. Mama half-asleep angrily tells me to sleep. For the first time, i cannot feel sleepy. But when i'm on bed lying, it is a whole new story.